just before 2012 A.D.

the year 2011 is ending in a few hours. it’s great that after all the difficulties, i got to spend the last days of the year with closest and dearest friends.

after tuesday’s 77 gathering, i invited deo for lunch after 5 or 6 years on thursday. and yes, it was great meeting her again. spending about 3 hours after 6 years of not seeing each other? awesome.

that night, despedida dinner for iris and napster then year ender videoke. i could have been more energetic but i think it was the lingering problems at work that brought me down when we were waiting for our turn at centerstage. good thing i was high enough during the day and the party ended with quite a blast. well, pretty unceremonious parting at the taxi but i was never good at goodbyes. and i think the taxi driver enjoyed the tip.

friday was rest day. night was a different story. g69 Christmas party. projector nba 2k12 and barrel pirate game with tequila.

this afternoon, after reschedules, i got to meet with best for a few minutes. short and sweet. i got the 2 kilos of dilis and gave her her small gifts.

some file sync, twitter, facebook, and ym today, maybe check jeff’s blog later, i’ll reserve the rest of the pc maintenance thing tomorrow morning. i think i already covered much of what’s to be done on the new pc yesterday and today.

the year ends with me with my parents and the razons. we just got home from hearing Mass. maybe ate will call later. i love happy endings. well, it’s just a change of calendar year, but it still is an end of something.

i think it’s about time for that certain shade of green. no more excuses. it’s soon gonna be 2012 A.D.

pc-69/i5-pc

tanghali, nabili ko na ang mga sumusunod:

• coolermaster silentpro m700
• asus p8p67 le
• intel core i5 2500k
• g-skill ripjaws 2x4gb ddr3 1333
• coolermaster v8

natapos din. hindi ko maikwento ang bawat detalye. nakakapagod. nakakakaba. sa ngayon, nag-i-install na ako ng windows sa bago kong pc.

kaninang hapon naman, sa opisina, kahit sa text man lang, nakagawa ako ng lakad para bukas. hindi pa ako kinakabahan. pero malamang, bukas, panic mode na.

kanina hapon iyon sa opisina. hapon lang ako sa opisina dahil tulog ako noong umaga. mga alas-dos na ata ako nakauwi mula sa aming pagtitipon nina john, cara, rachel at sunny.

incoherent ako ngayon. sa pagod siguro at saya. kailangang huminga nang malalim. at maghugas ng kamay. medyo madumi dahil sa trabaho.

sa lunes, balik na ang pressure sa opisina. kailangang tamasahin ang mga araw na ito. sa totoo lang, nagsimula na nga uli. maswerte ako at may mga maaasahan ako sa opisina tulad nina sir jonas at tristan. kung tutuusin lahat sila.

timog in a while

arrived late at work today, 6 minutes after 9, and took the afternoon off. left the office around 2pm, after subway lunch. got harry potter dvds on the way home and slept through the afternoon. got the text that my request at pc express has arrived. will have to get it tomorrow. will be off to timog/tomas morato area in a few minutes. easy times.

new pc tomorrow or on thursday. with how i felt when i was walking to rcbc tower before lunch, i think i need more physical activities this coming year. maybe arnis? maybe airsoft? quidditch?

pasok pagkatapos ng Pasko

8:41 ang login ko kanina sa opisina. matagal ko na ring hindi nagawa yun.

relax mode. medyo nakakahiya nga kay tristan at sa mech cubicle kasi after 1pm, pagita-gitara kami ni iris. maya-maya, ina-access ko na ang home pc, nagdo-download at nag-i-install ng printer/scanner drivers, nagtitingin ng lumang mga retrato, at nagcha-chat.

hindi ako nag-halfday dahil di natuloy ang lakad namin nina cara at hindi na rin ako tumuloy sa pagpunta kay best. bukas na lang ang malate friends at sa friday ang best friend. baka bukas na lang. iniwan ko na rin muna si gina sa opisina kasi mukhang papasok pa rin ako sa umaga.

pagkaalis nang bago mag-6, at dahil wala namang pupuntahan, dumaan ako sa pcx at binili ang internal memory card reader. sa waltermart, dumaan akong grocery para sa ilang items. marami na ring wwjd sa pcbs at ganun na lang ang tuwa ko. sayang, sana pala bumili ako ng backup pero ayos lang din kasi para mas alagaan ko ang binili ko para sa akin. nakabili rin ako para ipanregalo.

may pizza mula kay ninang edna pagdating pero malamang bukas ng umaga ko na lang kakainin. paksiw na lechon ang ulam kanina. panalo. after-dinner snack, tinoast na doritos dahil kumunat. sinamahan ng cheez whiz para mabawi ang alat. uminom ng coke dahil masarap. next week, dapat makabalik na ako sa healthy eating. walang junk food at softdrinks.

mahirap pero fulfilling ang pagsetup ng card reader sa cm 690 ii. kaso hindi pa magagamit. sinubukan ko kung gumagana dito sa x3-pc at gumana naman nung naitama ko ang pagkabit sa usb header. sablay lang, hindi kayang ilagay sa centurion 5. oh well. mukhang pang-fdd lang talaga yung 3.5 bay nito. may card reader naman yung hp aio.

maraming mini-adventure ngayong araw na ito. pero ang pinakamalupit, sa panahon ng ka-Paskuhang ito, naramdaman ko ang mapatawad at magpatawad. ang sarap.

Pasko na sa wakas

malapit na ring matapos ang araw. palagay ko, masaya naman ako ngayong Pasko. ito nga, kahit simple lang, ang pinakamasayang araw sa taong ito.

Maligayang Kaarawan Jesus.

it’s Christmas Eve

got to go to confession during the start of the Christmas Mass tonight after sleeping and texting and browsing the internet through most of the day.

the senses and the soul are feeling Christmas now. it’s happy.

it�s begun

half-day at work today and some more work related matters after logout. after those, Christmas weekend has started.

between logout and work related oversees txts and emails, i stopped by pcexpress again to get the psu i want, a dvd writer and a memory card reader. got a dvd writer. i should have gotten the card reader too since it supports t-flash. tsk. i should have insisted on myself that t-flash is microsd. oh well. will get it tomorrow.

yesterday, i finally got myself a radeon hd5670. it�s an msi hd5670 1gb ddr3. it�s now installed to x3-pc. tested and runs nfs hot pursuit well. about 30fps on average. not bad. not bad at all.

i got the item between 5 and 6 pm, after jonas� bday pizza, mojos, and ice cream party at work, while they were doing an epic comment thread on facebook, and before videoke night.

videoke night, well, it was ok. understatement. it was actually very fun, but i think i didn�t have enough songs and energy for that 4hour session. headache and quite a bit of heartache just before i slept and hour after midnight.

told my mom the good news about my level up when she checked if i�m already home. greater news, i woke up this morning and my sister was downstairs and told me of her level up. apir.

the other night was shangrila party night. missed high notes when it was my time to shine. the food and beer was great but hyperacidity wasn�t really friendly. had a few podium floor framing discussions with mentor before getting home.

that was a successful day after the hard work of my teammates despite me being unwell last tuesday.

we�re getting there. i�m feeling a smile on my face. and my head feels a bit better. yep, i got a haircut tonight.

wala ako sa opisina ngayon

matapos ang isang weekend blast sa opisina, ako’y hindi pumasok ngayon. tinatamad at masama ang pakiramdam. ala-una na nung bumangon ako. palagay ko naman ay kumikilos nang maayos ang mga kagrupo ko sa opisina. kaya nila yun.

nasa baba ako ngayon gamit ang x3-pc sa “bago” nitong casing. salamat kay adette na naki-ride sa trip ko. di ko naorasan, mga isang oras siguro ang ginawa kong paglipat mula sa 690 ii ko nga mga parts papunta sa centurion na ito.

sana matuwa naman sina mama at papa at mapakinabangan nila ito.

may panghihinayang sa kahapon dahil bday ni lola at hindi man lang ako nakasama sa pagrorosaryo. andito pa naman ang poon ni Mama Mary para sa block rosary. di bale, ito ang linggo bago mag-Pasko at may apat na araw pa ako para maging ayos na ayos.

naisip ko lang, kahapon, ang busog nga ng bday ni lola. nakapag-agahan ako ng spaghetti, nananghalian ng lugaw, meryendang ramen, at kfc para hapunan. masaya rin malamang ang party sa taas.

mamaya, susubukan kong i-reset ang body clock ko para mas maayos na ang pang-araw-araw na buhay ko.

in a week

it’s gonna be Christmas. had a fun company and division party last friday but as far as work is concerned, we’re not out of the woods yet.

had some fun with arianne and her nephew quite during and after post-party overtime. i’m touched by my teammates support. jj took home some work and tristan and cesar pledged to go to work sunday afternoon/night. sir jonas seems to be doing a good job handling these guys.

it’s gonna be a happy Christmas in a week.

2011-12-13

haha. hindi ko agad napansin yun, ah. madali at mahirap ang araw na ito.

kagabi rin kung tutuusin. mukhang sulit naman. nakauwi nang maaga-aga at nakakain ng kakaibang carbonara. makatulog kaya ngayon nang maaga?

pause treasure hunt

now this blogging has stopped again in being a daily thing. good and bad. good thing, it seems i’m getting less time in front of the pc. bad, i’m losing track of my everyday history, the purpose of my attempt to blog everyday.

last post was on tuesday, at 3am. i don’t remember tuesday that much. well wednesday, that’s when things got harder. i was in the office until thursday. haha. i even had the morning “off” but was logged in since i got out of the office at 5am.

since i was at home after 8am, i thought i’d do my daily treasure hunt in nfs world. and i did. so the next hunt would be until saturday morning. come friday, waking up at the office and heading home for a change of clothes, i fell asleep and rushed back to work. it wasn’t easy waiting for some drawings and keeping up with what i have to do.

i also got to the question and answer portion which went pretty well. i got a few congratulations from the cad people at work. heartwarming. fun thing, my teammates don’t seem to know. i told ailene and linette i have to treat them on tuesday for a certain distinction i got. they don’t mind. and the rest of the guys, they said they’re free on tuesday night. cool.

got restless and impatient and had to leave the office to meet with college friends. krys, nikko, george who came later, celle and ian, mark, tin, pao santos, erik v., and maki. dinner at north park g5 and beer with maki, erik, george, sheila, and nikko after. and some vomit in a corner at the pasay road-makati avenue intersection.

and i miss the nfs world treasure hunt. hunting streak over, i cut a daily routine. not so bad. it’s an online game. what’s not ok is how i’m stacking up in my rose debt. i want a rosary ring. it was a good experience praying while on the commute last thursday.

oh, thursday was a great day. started with corned beef, then getting to pray, being informed of a distinction, and some work done.

now it’s a sunday. will see if i can go by the office for a few hours. will go to Mass in the afternoon or evening depending on the circumstances of the day.

i helped papa put the Christmas lights last night. Christmas is in 2 weeks. i just remembered, that’s one of the happiest days in a year for me. getting there.

bitin sa tulog

baka makakuha ako ng dalawa hanggang apat na oras ng tulog ngayon. sablay-sablay na ang routine ko. kailangang ayusin. trabaho at buhay sa bahay at sa labas ng bahay at opisina. oo nga, no? parang wala ako nung buhay sa labas ng bahay at opisina. haha. alam na ang kailangang gawin.

no dramatic scream for ol’ buddy

i almost gave up on ol’ buddy, pentium d desktop, xxxg-01d. but it’s not yet time. well, a 20-minute startup isn’t so bad after it’s done. and i’ve finally had the time to fix the audio device error thing.

the x1650 pro’s gotta go, though. it’s just too noisy and not i wasn’t able to do anything about it. i remembered just now, i still have the x1300 hm it had before i upgraded it. will downgrade it tomorrow. or maybe later. let’s see.

first day of december, there’s a calm before a rushing storm as the calendar comes to a close. i think, although i was admittedly quite distracted in my head, last night’s recollection did help. and the good feeling of being a good friend even though just through text or ym.

pretty sad news today about yonni’s phone. gadgets. i’m just happy he’s one to take it better than i probably would.

gadgets. i’m quite stuck at lazy holidays and weekends. gotta do something active. soon. i’m getting old fast.

bonifacio rest

bonifacio day. walang pasok. halos wala ring trabaho para sa akin para sa project sa fort bonifacio. nakakatamad. hindi ako masyadong pagod sa mga nagdaang araw pero hindi pa rin ako ganadong gumawa nang maliksi.

hindi pala ako nakapag-blog nang mahigit isang linggo. ano bang nangyari mula noon? ang naaalala ko, naka-isang mapagpahingang weekend ako. noong lunes at martes, pagod-pagod sa paghahabol sa B2 at nagpunta pa akong site. katunayan, kahapon, balak kong isuot papasok ang safety shoes ko pero pagkasuot ko, nagkalat ako ng semento at buhangin sa sahig dito sa kwarto ko.

noong martes ko rin nakuha ang bluetooth headset ko na natuklasan kong hindi pala pwedeng pang-music playback kasi walang A2DP(?) nalaman ko rin ang gamit noong spec na yun. ok lang naman dahil tila nasusulit ko ang pagtawag at pagtanggap ng tawag salamat sa sun. buti pwedeng multi-point sa dalawa kong selepono.

hassle lang din, nagkamali ako noong sinubukan kong tawagan si mama. dahil naubusan ng baterya yung handsfree, binaba ko na rin ang tawag. sa pagkakasunud-sunod ng mga pangyayari, muntik madisgrasya si mama. buti sugat sa bandang siko lang. sobrang pasasalamat ko sa Diyos na hindi siya napahamak. nakakapanghinayang lang din, halos wala akong magawa para makabawi.

pa-easy-easy lang noon miyerkules at huwebes sa opisina. umuwi pa nga yata ako nang maaga-aga noon. noong biyernes, nakalakwatsa kami nina arianne, cesar, at ailene. nakakatuwa dahil may bagong recruit sa gala at panalo ang taste ni ailene mula pizza, pasta, hanggang yogurt.

nakarami rin ako ng tulog nitong weekend. wala gaanong pressure galing kay danilo pero may utang pang trabaho. mukhang maayos naman ngayong ang pinoproblema namin mga poste pero mas maganda sana kung naagapan agad at hindi naging problema sa site.

nakakuha kami ni kuya beboy na magkita at kumain sandali noong linggo bago ako magsimba. noong lunes, naupakan nina jj ang piyaya. buti may natira pa sa akong isa.

marami-rami ring nangyari at napala sa dalawang araw na pasok at masarap magpahinga ngayon. sayang lang at may mga pinasa pa kami kaya hindi kami nahintay nina cesar at linette kaya kami na lang nina tristan at arianne ang kumain sa mang inasal. nagkape na rin kami ni arianne habang pumunta na sa tagaytay si tristan.

dahil ginabi ako, hindi ako nakatulog hanggang kaninang mga 5:00. sana makapagpahinga nga pero sana may mga magawa ring kapaki-pakinabang. home alone ako ngayon, nasa kwarto, nakaharap sa pc. baka bukas o sa biyernes, may mga bilhin akong part. psu siguro. nagugutom ako,

pancit pancit spaghetti

good weekend so far. mama’s birthday was celebrated with a lot of food. it was mostly sleep and eat and need for speed today but i did some small chores today. wow. i’m quite proud of myself. haha.

happy birthday. she looked a bit tired but happy nonetheless. i wish i could have done more but i’m thankful for another year in her good life.

weekend, no work. i avoided work-related phone calls. sorry. which reminds me, i should remember to reply to danilo’s text message. wait. i’ll do it now. done.

i hope i can enjoy the rest of the weekend. or at least rest during the rest of the weekend. monday promises to be heavy. i don’t even want to check my work email now.

but work is still more than a day away. besides, i have an appoinment with my denist in the morning. oh, which means i have to send out instructions tomorrow night. oh well. but that’s still quite a day away.

this afternoon, i found out that i have php2,200 more for my pc “budget” since i accounted for the whole php3,300 cost of ms office. since the price is for 3 licenses, i should have accounted for only 1 third. this means i can get an i5-2500k but i have to get a more ordinary ram. no problem there. i’ll just overclock the cpu. yeah! and i get to get a coolermaster v8.

maybe i’ll buy a power supply and optical drive on friday. i sure hope my mother’s ok with this. she isn’t so against this as she usually is. with my money problems, i need to really play my cards right. timing and the right buys for me and for them.

i realized, incremental buys don’t hurt my wallet as much. well, not as obvious. and the decision to buy the harddrives yesterday feels right since the projection is that prices will stay up and keep going up until end of next year. i sure hope i get a good bonus from work this year.

oh, today, i got to assemble the old barbeque grill. nostalgic.

sweek

sabi ni danilo noong lunes ata, “this is gonna ba a particularly shitty week.” tila nga. dalawang gabing natulog sa opisina, dalawang beses naging ungas sa mga katrabaho, isa’t kalahating araw na leave, isang late, at konting heartbreak. mukhang marami namang napala. pwede na.

kailangan ko ng social life. naka-3 day streak na ako sa nfs world treasure hunt na isang malupit na pang-level up na mas pinaganda pa. sakto, kung kailan nakakauwi na ako. nakakapagtaka lang, nawawala ang mga pulis mula kagabi.

weekend, kailangang sulitin. hindi dapat kasama sa shitty week ang weekend. sa opisina lang dapat yun.

lazy on a sunday morning

i think the most action today was a riff during tinola jam.

i really need that reset.

i need a snap snap reset again

wala na, nasira na ang aking daily habit ng pag-blog at pagdasal ng rosaryo. snap snap reset dapat uli.

may isang beses sa nagdaang mga araw, napalayas ako ng isang ipis dito sa kwarto ko. napatay ko na siya ngayon. isang hampas. nagtago siya sa ilalim ng squier amp ko. nag-i-internet ako sa netbook ko nang makita kong may gumagalaw sa ilalim ng drafting table ko. ngayon ko lang naisip, sana hindi nagpugad yun kung saan sa kwarto ko.

marami akong naitanim na pagkakamali sa mga araw ko. kaya madalas akong pagod. kaya madalas akong maraming kailangang gawin. ito nga, kailangan ng reset. paano ba kakakapag-reset ngayon?

strike 2

this is the second long weekend in two weeks and i missed the chance to go out with my best. well, it can’t be helped. i’m not looking at a strike 3 because next week doesn’t have a long weekend. haha.

yesterday, i bought kevin’s strike noir and strike+iwsp. he needed some cash. the two looked good side-by-side although i have them now standing in for shenlong and heavy arms with other stand-ins. i wonder when i can get the time to build.

i also wonder when i can get the time and inspiration to write again. write songs. even just writing blogposts, i passed on for a few days.

no holiday for me tomorrow. well, today was almost a lost sunday. i find myself blessed because i have upto 4 churches where i can hear Mass at any time of the day. i need to get some spiritual duties done. it’s one thing to miss out on things like blog posts and creative outputs, but it’s a more serious matter missing out on things that are needed by the soul—mine and others’.

another challenging day tomorrow. gotta get good at it.

beef lunch

todos los santos ngayon. matagal bago nagsimula ang araw ko. malamang dahil sa pagod. tanghali na kami nagpunta ng tatay ko sa loyola memorial park. kaming dalawa lang. kasama nina buds si ate, may pasok si yonni kaya kahapon sila pumuntang tatlo nina adette at judith.

mabigat ang lunch ko kanina, beef chow fan at beef wanton. nakapagdeposito na rin ako sa bpi express deposit at bumili ng mga cd sa park square. hindi ako nakabili ng external harddrive dahil wala ang hinahanap kong seagate goflex 1tb. at tila wala ring may esata connector.

nakapagsimba ako nang 6:30 at masarap ang uwing pancit at balut nina mama, tita chato, at tito nonong.

patapos na ang long weekend. tila nakapahinga naman. bukas, kakain kaya ako ng veggie meat?

pain on my shoulders

that was one rough saturday. not the best. could have been much much better. but i had the bits of fun i wanted and didn’t expect.

gig last saturday was lame for our part. went great for the rest. got a good jam with tinola earlier after the cut-short jam at the balcony which proved to be gig-fatal. ah, yes. i see a redemption gig to be very crucial.

i’m having the long weekend. yey! at last. rest. although my shoulders still hurt from carrying my bass, netbook, bass effects, and work stuff around last saturday.

i’m back at the writing table. well, typing table. haha.

italian wine and cake

at nakalimutan ko na ang tawag sa merienda namin kanina, pa-bday ni danilo sa site.

nakakapagod ang linggong ito. may ilang malaking problema, mukhang nalunasan naman. hindi ko lang nabigyan ng oras ang maraming bagay. bukas, sabado, isang huling hirit bago magpasarap uli.

kapagod. kailangan kong magpraktis ngayon para sa gig bukas. parang kotr lang. walang ensayo. haha. pagalingan.

step 1

slept and ate today. worried a bit about work. well, it happens. not much preparations. not little, actually. haha. well, barney did 42km. tomorrow morning, i run. i have to go hear Mass after then get on with the band practice. and it’s gonna be one awesome weekend.

fried isaw night

sa wakas, nakakuha ako ng bakasyon. ang hindi lang ganoon kaganda, sana ang iba ko ring kasama, natatamasa nila.

hindi mabuti ang simula ng nagdaang dalawang araw. napakalaking pasasalamat ko sa Diyos, lumalabas, ok naman at hindi lang basta ok. trabaho, trabaho, trabaho. mukhang nasa tamang daan na kami para gumaan na ang buhay at trabaho.

mula lunes pala ako hindi nakapag-blog. ang naaalala ko, sasablay-sablay ako noong lunes at nagpaumaga na hanggang martes. miyerkules, ako yata ang huling umuwi. kahapon, nasa site coordination meeting buong araw, 7am hanggang 8pm. dumaan akong opisina at may nadatnang tirang handa. nakakabusog.

patext-text kay best, patext-text sa banda para sa praktis, pa-facebook-facebook pag-uwi, pa-email-email. oo nga pala, kailangan kong magreply ngayon sa email. pakonti-konting enjoy. pasingit-singit.

masarap na ngayong biyernes, nakatanggap ako ng  papuri mula sa boss ko. masabihan kang proud siya dahil bilib ang kiliyente sayo. bukod pa sa kahapon, pagpapakilala sa akin ni danilo ay isa sa pinakamahusay na nakilala niya. sana mapalabas ko rin ang husay ng mga kasama ko na para sa akin, sobrang karapat-dapat ng papuri.

nakahingi ako ng weekend pero magpapagod rin ako. ibang klaseng pagod. pagod sa pag-e-enjoy na hindi ko nagagawa sa trabaho. sana kayanin ng katawan ko.

salamat talaga sa Diyos sa lahat ng biyaya. isa sa pinakapanalo, may mga magulang akong sinusuportahan ako kahit hindi halata.

nakakahapo

it was already sunday, i think, when i went down to get some more left over pizza. 3 slices. turns out, i ate mama’s share. i have to get her pizza one of these days.

i woke up from an epic dream. not so much of an adventure, really. more like epic emotions. and a lot of running up and down stairs. and it felt like a prologue to an adventure.

if the adventure was the real world i woke up to, it wasn’t really much. another one of those bad sundays. lazy. tired. none of the work i intended to is done so far. i got to go to Mass at 6:30, again. but it gave a good feeling as always. and a challenge.

i hope i have the energy to do what i have to do. monday has got to go well.

i hope there would be reviews on the fx-8120 soon. i’m wanting to buy it so much and i need reviews to backup my presumption that for a little less than the i5 2500, it’s a good buy. well, reviews and availability.

availability’s an issue with stuff i want. and recommend. it’s great, although i wish i could have been there, that cara’s finally bought a new cpu, mobo, and ram. and a cool case. as recommended, she got herself an athlon ii x4 640 and a 880g-based ecs mobo. combined with her radeon hd 5770, that machine is gonna rock.  and 8gb ram. cool.

purchases. the xperia pro’s not yet available too. i hope i successfully pass on that. and not need it. jenny’s working now. i swithed the network to gsm only in the early afternoon. i hope it was just a screwup with smart’s network. i wasn’t able to send and receive text. the line was actually out even though the signal was up. i can’t even contact the phone via phonecall. and it’s getting slow. i really need to do the monthly backup thing.

above that, though, i need to do good. do good in stuff and do good things.

lamezy

ang sablay sa araw na ito ay hindi na naman mabuti ang gising ko at pumasok ako na halos walang napala sa tinagal ko sa opisina.

masaya naman dahil nakakain ako ng spaghetti. sa kabila ng nakakabagot at medyo nakakadismayang trabaho, nagtawanan kami nina cesar at arianne nung naghapunan kami.

hindi man kami nakagala ng best ko, medyo may buhay naman ang aming pagtetext. nakakatuwa na mas nagiging positive na siya. pangarap ko talagang maging masaya siyang tunay.

bukas, tila hindi ako makakatakbo. game. 16.8 km next week. laban! sabay sched pa ng praktis para sa OS X gig. sige lang.

getting good at goodbyes

many things in the office today. i woke up there for one. and it was arianne�s birthday, liza�s last day, and supposedly the submission for the ground floor ifc drawings. mixed emotions i�m not really good at thinking of and writing about.

spent the night there again. almost got there late yesterday and got there late by a minute today. to think i woke up there. well, i went home to sleep on my bed and do my morning stuff better. i feel kinda guilty that i can do this while my companions spend the straight hours until midday or even until the end of office hours. well, i hope they don�t take it badly.

i think the constant overnights at work are wearing me down but i really felt good with the improvements i�m seeing in the drawings mostly with ate karen�s help. it was also a wonderful feeling that i finally quite finished to a more precise and workable level the column tables i�ve wanted to do since may or june.

next up, safe. as much as i want things to go smoothly and precisely, there�s also that longing for glory. ah yes.

it�s already mid-october weekend. here�s the plan: this weekend, get a good chunk of work done on office projects. this coming week, get a good amount of cramming training. next weekend, show `em how to run. the week after that, get one or two awesome jam sessions with konata fans club. on the last weekend of august, get back on the stage.

there�s a diorama at gundamguy website. i thought of doing overtime on the holiday on the 31st to fix files at work. i hope there won�t be deadly deadlines then so i might dedicate that day instead to building mg deathscythe ew. that would be 2 years and 11 months after building hg deathscythe h custom. ah, time.

kahel at maliwanag

mabagal at hindi kabutihan ang umaga ko pagkagising. sayang, masarap pa naman ang tulog ko at hanggang sa gumising. medyo sumama lang talaga. pinasya kong hindi na muna pumasok noong umaga. marami-raming nangyari.

nagtext si hazel kung pwede kaming tumugtog sa x japan gig dahil may nag-backout. txt brigade taps ayun, game, nag-confirm kami. nakapag-agahan ako ng dalawang pandesal at tuna at pumasok bago mag-lunch break.

sinimulan kong problemahin ang mga dapat problemahin sa g/f hanggang 8/f. nagkainitan dahil hindi ko pwedeng iwanan yung ginagawa ko para sumama sa meeting. boss dan and jonas to the rescue. hindi rin ganoon karami ang napala ko. medyo distracted at nanghihina at dismayado sa konting napala namin sa nagdaang linggo. ayos lang, nakarami naman kasi ng pahinga.

nabaling din ang atensyon ko sa mga review ng amd fx. maraming hindi ok na review sa fx-8150. may isa o dalawang nagsabing mukhang ok ang fx-8120 para sa presyo niya. medyo sakto, yun ang balak kong bilhin. sana meron dito nung 95w na fx-8120.

matagal bago dumating si danilo sa opisina kaya mga 9 na ako nakaalis pagkatapos ng konting usap at pagpaplano. binigyan niya ako ng libro na iwan ko (sana naiwan ko lang at hindi nawala) sa mesa ko. mga kwento. ayos, mukhang mapapabasa na naman ako. baka makapagsulat uli.

nagtaxi ako papunta sa nbc tent para sa race kit. orange and singlet ko at halos wala nang freebies. oh well. last day at halos closing time na. hehe. nakakasindak ang race map lalo na kung ganun kalaki ang drawing.

naglakad ako sa ulan papuntang mcdo para kumain. tumawag ako sa nanay ko para sabihing doon na ako kakain kasi gutom na ako. madali akong nakakuha ng taxi pauwi at nakapagrosaryo naman pagdating.

maraming nangyari ah. nasa conference kami ngayon ni dogi. wala pa si thad. mamayang kaunti, may rereplyan akong email. ang bait ng Diyos. hindi kasing-bigat ng inasahan ko ang araw na ito. maliwanag nga kahit maulan.

unrun

it’s been 2 months and a half since i last ran and that was during the milo marathon. doing some makeshift scientific approach to how i’ll cram my training, i think i’ll be ok with 3 training sessions given i’ll do them with the same intensity as i did before.

tomorrow’s midweek and i’m getting worried about my progress for friday’s deadline. i think it’s also a wrong move to not let anyone else worry. i can’t be stock at being worried, though. mark tomorrow as a big day.

spent time doing email again earlier tonight after dinner. i did it using mama’s acer and on gmail’s user interface. not feeling it. ok, i’m a client application kind of person. cloud services are great but client software much better than web apps. just my opinion and preference.

i’m excited for tomorrow’s amd fx release. and i also have to finally get my adidas race kit. and finish a lot of things for friday’s deadline. i’ve been walking a bit to much with these past few days. i need to run.

lunes at mga poste

halos yung column tables ang inasikaso ko buong araw sa trabaho ngayon. na walang overtime. may sobra, pero hindi umabot sa overtime. oh yeah. madilim na nga lang nung umuwi ako kasi muntik na akong ma-late at malapit nang mag-disyembre, maaga na ang kagat ng dilim.

ang sayang gumamit ng macro at magplano kung paano ang paggawa sa cad. bukas, dapat todo trabaho at dapat malaki ang progress. siguro, sana, makakapag-training na rin ako pagkatapos ng trabaho. o mukhang kailangang unahin ang pag-claim ng singlet atbp.

nagawa ko, unang araw ng panatang magdasal ng rosaryo araw araw at yung prayer of commitment para sa one million rosaries a day for 200 days. dapat, parang ang mga ginagawa ko sa excel at ang inaasahan ko sa mga cad operator namin, dapat gawin ang lahat para maging maayos ang buhay at malinis ang kaluluwa. sablay din kasi ako madalas, e. dapat, dapat galingan ko lalo sa aspeto na to ng buhay ko.

showers before the storm

it rained quite heavy for a few minutes and intermitently during the day. lazy day, i got to zuma and plants vs zombies on my netbook and desktop under my steam account. i bout the two on december 31 and january 1. i intended to give them as gifts but i figured a steam account would be quite a bit for my father to handle without asking me a number of times and my best wouldn’t care much about paid casual pc games.

only time outside was for sunday Mass. i wore my new green shirt and black polo. the Gospel was about wearing the proper attire. ah, i gotta get the proper attire for my soul.

today i also came across some i’m a mac commercials and spoofs. and a monologue (i think it was a podcast) by the late steve jobs for which the one who posted it seemed to be against it. i’m quite against the poster’s opinion. with all these, i’m pretty much reaffirmed on my view of apple—in control. there’s a certain irony to steve job’s “think different” or maybe being in control is different.

eitherway, i’m still a pc person, but i’m tending for the controlled system in choosing an amd platform. ack. amd fx on wednesday. the anxiety of waiting. and as for cellphones, i’m still partial about going android. with venjo on blackberry, goey on android, and domeng on ios, i’m left with symbian or windows phone. nah. i’ll stick with my feature phone for a bit longer.

it’s fun to blog about these stuff (and get hooked to a casual game and some 3d racing) and not be stressed on office work.

meteor shower fail

gumising ako at maulan. hindi ako nakalabas ng bahay buong araw. chill na lang. maulan sa labas. at ayun, bam, tinamad. hindi ko na rin pinilit si best maglakwastsa para bonding sila si sean.

anong nagawa ko ngayon? naglipat, nagbura, at nag-backup ng mga files sa dalawang desktop. naglaro rin ng nfs world. nakakaaliw ang nadiskubre ko kagabing bangko sa nfs world—treasure hunt. pwede na rin. mas hindi frustrating kumpara sa mga multiplayer race na masyadong outclassed ang sasakyan ko. pero medyo matagal pa talaga bago ako makabili ng tier 2 na kotse. hindi na siguro porsche cayman s ang bibilhin ko pag pwede na. toyota supra na lang. mas sulit.

geek mode. haha. sa 12 inaasahang lumabas ang mga amd fx na cpu na matagal ko nang inaantabayanan at balak bilhin. sa 27, ilalabas ang mg sandrock na siyang hudyat ko para bilhin ang mg shenlong. sakto pa pareho sa sweldo. ewan lang natin kung may sapat na pera pambili.

yung cpu, kahit papaano, kung may pambili ako at mabili ko, ok na. tapos na ang problema. mas problema yung gundam na mas may pambili ako. mabibili ko naman malamang yung shenlong, pero pag binili ko na ang sandrock na naka-schedule bilhin pag in-announce ang heavy arms, matatambakan ako ng mga hindi pa gawang gundam. hmm… yung 360 modena kaya, kailan ko matatapos? at yung supra na bigay ni yonni, gusto ko nang buksan at simulan.

easy friday again at last

first friday of the month, i almost got late for work so i got to go home past 6. had quite a bit to do but it wasn’t a very busy day. it feels like a mellow interlude in a heavy song. well, a not so good song. haha.

i got to replace the pairs of pants i bought yesterday. good thing i hurried home. spaghetti. oh yeah.

dogi, venjo, and yaluts yesterday confirmed game at another attempt at a band reboot. i hope linette sends me a copy of her songs this weekend. i also hope to get my works done. next week, if all goes well, without overtime and stuff, i need that band practice. i need my music back.

and my stamina. i’ve been noticing i’ve been getting easily tired even just running up the stairs. 2 weeks to cram training. hahaha. call! i brought home my running shoes that i left at work (to no use) for some weeks. let’s see what will happen this weekend and these two weeks before adidas king of the road. i just remembered, i run to get somewhere.

mga trabaho

medyo nanghihina ako ngayong nagdaang araw. medyo panalo pa naman kagabi: wabi-sabi kasama nina iris at napnap tapos dinner pag-uwi kasama ang buong pamilya.

bago pumasok, nabalitaan ko sa radyo (oo, sa radyo, hindi sa internet) ang pagpanaw ni steve jobs. at oo, nakikidalamhati ako. siya ang nagpa-cool sa mga geek. good job.

parang ang dami kong ginawa at hindi nagawa sa trabaho ngayon. tila marami talagang kailangang gawin. haha. pero masarap din ang pakiramdam, nakakauwi nang maaga-aga. at walang nagbabadyang overtime sa sabado. sana makalabas kami ni best. kailangang mag-enjoy kami ngayong darating na weekend.

nakadaan ako kanina sa waltermart at marami-raming nabili. nakabili na rin ako sa wakas ng mga dvd-r. sampu. nakabili rin ako ng dalawang size 31 na c9 na slacks (itim at dark gray) na papapapalitan (wokey, napaisip ako kung tama yung salita) ko rin bukas ng size 30. nakabili na rin ako ng isa pang sports shirt, green t-shirt, at black polo. grand total: PHP2,049. oh yeah. starbucks. sana pwede ngang palitan yung mga pantalon. medyo masagwa yung luwag, e. medyo lang. at hindi ko kasi masusuot nang walang sinturon.

faraday na bukas. sana dalhin ni linette ang mga sinulat niyang kanta at sana maisipan at magawan ko agad ng tugtog. at syempre, sana magkaroon ng oras para makapag-jamming kami at makapag-gig. kailangan kong tumugtog uli sa stage.

lumabas ka sa silong

medyo matindi pala ang huling pagsugod. pero sa totoo lang, meron pang mga susunod. sige lang! laban lang. pero pahinga muna. masarap makalabas ng lupa. konti pa, iiwan na talaga namin ang ilalim ng lupa, ang mga silong at rampa.

pero pahinga muna. at ayoko nang magpaumaga hanggang maliwanag na maliwanag na sa labas. at abutan ng mga tao na hindi pa ako naliligo.

pero maganda ang umaga ko. masaya ring makalabas, kahit ministop lang ang pinuntahan.

got mail?

i think i�m having writer�s block. i also think not since i never achieved the writer status.

tough week last week. tough deadlines but i think we somehow got the message that we�re hard at work on the project. quality-wise, well, we�ll have to improve.

had another one of those half weekends and i�m sleepy now. netbook-desktop sync done. desktop backup and clear harddisk space done. i also did the supposed monthly backup of the acer laptop yesterday at work where i left it and will be lending it for a week. the downloaded aspire wallpapers look great.

this coming week, i�m looking forward to feel a certain amount of fulfillment again. ooh, and maybe an addtion to my routine. you�ve got mail?

cad

i think i got a little hot-headed for a number of instances yesterday at work. and i didn’t have lunch. good thing i got skyflakes and cheez whiz. but still, i really need to get my meals. and my cool head.

just got home. ack. i’m hungry.

the flash

mahangin. maulan. bumabagyo. gumising ako at maraming nagtanong sa akin kung may pasok at kung papasok ako.

pumasok ako. na-intimidate ako ng hangin at nagbabadyang pagbuhos uli ng ulan kaya nag-jeep ako. kung hindi ako nag-jeep, medyo ok na training na rin sana yun. pero bumuhos nang malakas at buti nga nag-jeep ako.

pagdating sa opisina, wala nang pasok. naka-generator na lang pala. bago mag-ika-10 ng umaga, wala nang kuryente. nasira ata yung alternator. ewan. bago mamatay ang kuryente, nabigay ko kay ailene ang panlaban sa zombies at may bago silang dekorasyon sa cubicle nila ni linette.

napilitang umuwi kaming mga pumasok. inubos ko muna ang kinakain kong tinapay at iniinom na milo. nagbaon kasi ako ng tig-two na tuna hotdog sa two na hotdog bun. hindi kami makagimik kasi mga east metro people sila at taga-south si ailene.

paglalakad papuntang pasong tamo, nakayuko ako. may tumbang sign na nakalagay, slow down. may langis din sa daan. hindi ko maisipan ng kanta. maganda pero sobrang kulang pa yung eksensa.

nag-jeep uli ako at hinangin ang cap ko pagbaba. nakuha ko pa naman sa tapat ng yulo plaza dahil walang sasakyangsasagasa.

home sweet home, walang kuryente. nakaidlip at nakapananghalian kami. malakas pa rin ang hangin at ulan. pagkakain, nagpaload ako ng alltext 20 sa sexy store pero alltext 10 ang dinig, naload, at binayaran ko. ok lang.

tambay sa terrace at sa kwarto dahil mahina ang signal. nagka-kuryente na pero wala pa ring telepono at internet. resulta: tulog. pagkagising ko, binuksan ko ang modem at facebook at twitter agad sa selepono ko.

pahinga. sa kabila ng pinsala sa labas, maswerte ang ilan na ang mga araw na ito ay panahon para makapagpahinga.

sakto, bago matapos ang pagta-type ko nito, kakain na raw kami.

269 2011

day 269 this year was a rather workful work day. not bad. yeah, i didn’t get to give the anti-zombie item but well, all isn’t over.

stayed at the office second to last to sir danilo. they say the captain sinks with his ship. i say no sinking ships here.

i’m pretty stuffed right now after a heavy meal thanks to my loving mother and even more left over carbonara from my sister. too bad my father’s already asleep when i got home. will greet him in the morning. hope they’re proud to have a hardworking son. actually, i hope they do have one worth of being proud of.

tuna hotdog

nakapagpagupit na ako sa wakas.

medyo nahuli sa usapan pero ayos lang. matapos ang halos isang taon, at maraming naipong ketchup, natupad din ang best friend date.

starbucks at maraming lakad sa sm manila; bili ng halaman laban sa zombie habang naghahanap ng beanbag at polo; simba sa Espiritu Santo, tayuman; bili ng tuna hotdog at sliced cheese habang naghahanap ng polo; kenny roger’s, uwi. panalo. ka-miss.

nabigay ko na rin ang mga regalong matagal natago. pag-uwi, hindi pala tumagal ng isang minuto ang laruan. tinapon at tinawanan. panalo. ang sarap, napatawa ko si sean.

pag-uwi, naghapunan ako kasama ng aking mga magulang. hindi ko naabutan ang kapatid ko sa bahay pero nasarapan ako sa dala niyang carbonara.

lunes, laban na uli. dapat sapat na ang pahinga at pagpapalakas.

paturo kay naruto

medyo nag-backfire ang pagnood ko ng 300 para sa motivation dahil late ako nakatulog. napanood din kasi ako ng 1st 2 ep. ng bagong season ng the big bang theory. ayos. may mga aantabayanan na naman ako. pero hindi anime ngayon. big bang at himym.

ok, hindi matindi ang pagsugod na gagawin namin. o mas may panahon lang para makatapos. may oras pa para magpahinga. at magplano.

mas may feel na ako ng suporta ni sir manny. mukhang makabuluhan naman ang meeting namin nina sir manny, danilo at david sze kasama sina jonas, arianne at daryl. sa lunes, balik sa trabaho at kailangang tumungo sa tagumpay.

bukas, dapat gumising nang maaga. may mga balak gawin kasama ang tila masaya namang best.

ngayon, +1 party sana namin nina dogi, venjo, atbp. pero wala akong +1 at ako lang ang nagreply kaya postponed to next week. good luck. hindi rin ako natuloy sa shock and awe. pagod. hindi rin ako makakalakwatsa nang maayos. pag gumanda na talaga nang todo ang takbo ng trabaho, at sana ngayon papasok na linggo mangyari yun, maglalakwatsa ako nang todo. pero syempre, sa katanggap-tanggap na antas ayon sa aking pitaka.

three hundred

had an ok friday. i missed the sun when i got out of the office at 6, but come to think of it, i did go out and feel the sunlight at around 4.

quite a day, i was “forced” to have breakfast and it felt good to choose breakfast over not being late. late for 2 days straight, well, i’ve been going home very late for more than two days. more two months?

teddy, on our side, resigned and it pretty much frustrated sir jonas but hey, it can’t be helped. the impending further loss in manpower makes me feel troubled a bit, but i really have to be the guy who says things will turn out alright and make it happen. erick also finally filed his resignation. that was a pretty light-hearted story. no sad goodbyes.

work wasn’t so productive but kinda fun. lunch out at chilli pepper’s with ailene, jj, arianne, daryl, nap-nap, and cesar was, well, fun. haha. a change in setting with the guys. linette wasn’t able to join us and i kinda had the idea of buying her cake for her birthday. later, around breaktime (after breaktime, actually), daryl and i went out to buy her cake and everyone enjoyed. well, tristan wasn’t sent back from the meeting so he wasn’t able to enjoy the cake. i really owe him a lot to go in my stead.

heartwarming thing too is receiving a phonecall from my best friend that afternoon while i was going back from buying cake and before we started eating cake. i really love my best friend and hearing her happy.

before 6, we had a talk about what our problems with the project are and what we are to do about it and the meeting we’ll be having tomorrow. we really need to have fun tonight because tomorrow’s gonna be difficult and we can see it. it scares me a bit, really, but keep the faith.

got out of work at past 6pm and finally ended nyan nyan nyan… which was practically playing the whole work day. walked to greenbelt/landmark/glorietta and parted with daryl and arianne and irvin when i went to park square. objective: express deposit. status: complete. secondary objective: buy cd. status: bought wasting light by foo fighters. ah, yes, the feeling of purchasing a record.

got home and had dinner. alas, i had 3 rice meals today. i was also able to pray the rosary with my parents. exchanged some texts with my sister and greated her husband a happy birthday on twitter. quite a day.

calm before the storm? i don’t know. beyond the sound of the airconditioner, i hear now, it has started to rain. Thank you God, we have this roof over us. ah, yes, roofs. tomorrow, we plan, then we rise, from the basements, to the upper storeys, to the roofs.

slab edge

nakakapagod pero hindi stressed masyado sa trabaho kanina. nakauwi ako bago mag-cinderella at nakakwentuhan pa si mama pagdating.

faraday na bukas. sana masikatan ako ng araw pag pauwi na ako.

after 3 out

ah, yes, at home, awake after maybe 7 or 8 hours of sleep. that was a pretty good overnight overtime last night since we sent out 3 sets of drawings even though 2 were just advance copies.

i woke up at 3:30am today when i was trying to get some sleep byt that time yesterday. oh yeah. hope today will be a good day. wow, it’s wednesday already. i woke up happy last monday and i believe that helped a lot.

we’re not out of the woods yet. today, we have to out the “magic” table and i’m the one to do it. and tomorrow, final touches on a more than a year-long problem project. i can’t wait for the coming hopefully less stressful months.

light guard

ang sakit ng ulo ko kaninang hapon pagkagising ko. ang hassle pag sumasakit ang ulo ko, umiinit din. buti nabawasan at lumamig na rin.

panalo ang l4d2 party kagabi/kaninang madaling-araw kahit late ako. masayang maging masaya.

siguro isang factor sa pagsakit ng ulo ko ang mali kong sleeping habit na bukod pa sa hindi angkop ang oras. kailangang itama ang paggamit ng pc at internet.

getting out of the hole

it was a really good metaphor. i wish i had a lot more perseverance from getting out of bed to getting work done. i guess i’ll be back at getting out of he hole in a while.

tokyo tokyo overtime dinner out

i didn�t anticipate that i�d be going at the office until after 10pm on a friday and have dinner with jj, arianne, and liza after and go home after midnight. well, sir danilo is right in saying we really need to get out of the hole. it�s really a pleasure to have a supportive client, and as things are, supervisor.

too bad i missed dinner at home tonight. gotta have breakfast here at home tomorrow morning before i go to work. overtime.

then l4d2 party after. and maybe i�ll install windows 8 dev preview some other time. haha. geek mode, i downloaded the 64- and 32-bit versions via torrent last thursday night until friday night. download lasted less than a day. further geek mode, i checked the download progress while i was at work.

ah yes, it was relaxing, sleeping last night with rediscovered mp3�s�instrumentals and classical music ripped from readers� digest cd�s�also to have the pc do something else while downloading. although it could have saved some watts if i left the pc to just download, i think listening to classical music while sleeping has its benefits. yeah, i�ll think just that.

stress and deflection

ang dami ng kailangang gawin sa opisina. ang dami. ang dami. haha. nakakalula pero kahit papaano, dahil napapaligiran ako ng mga maaasahan at umaasa sa akin, kahit sumasablay kami sa mga deadline at sa diskarte, hindi nakakawala ng pag-asa.

kauuwi ko lang, katatapos mag-hapunan. masarap ang macaroni na hinanda ni mama kahit bitin ang sauce. sa kawali na ako kumain habang nakipagkwentuhan kay mama. nagpasundo na naman ako sa kanila ni papa para mapilitan akong umuwi.

sa email, nagtawag si venjo ng l4d2 and september bidets party sa sabado. dapat dapat makadalo.

internet sharing

nakikigamit ako ngayon ng internet kina adette. ewan kung wala talaga kaming internet o may sabit lang sa mga kable sa baba. kung anuman, bukas na lang asikasuhin. swerte, salamat kina adette, nakapag-email, twitter, konting facebook, at blog ako ngayon. internet dependence. tsk tsk.

maraming hindi mabuting nangyari ngayong araw na ito. ewan ba. at ang mahirap doon, pagod ako para tapusin ang marami pang kailangang tapusin. sana makapagpahinga nang sapat para makalaban nang maganda pagkagising. hindi na dapat maulit ang nangyaring pangit simula pa lang ng umaga at hindi rin mabuting hapon. tama, dapat laging asamin ang tama.

in a vacuum, you can’t breath

work, vacuum, vacuum cleaner—very related words.

and this post seems to be short enough to be on twitter. i’m tired.

baka inaantok lang ako

hindi ko talaga alam paano sisimulan ang post na ito. at hindi ko rin maisip paano ituloy. patigil-tigil ako at tina-type ang naiisip ko.

baka lonely monday lang talaga. mahirap mag-isip. aha! baka inaantok lang ako.

sleepy cat�s still sleeping

there really is a downside to sleeping all morning�the rest of the day gets rushed. the afternoon and evening was ok today, though.

lunch was great and i had enough time to prepare and not be late for Sunday Mass at greenbelt. come 530pm, i�ve also slept (again) enough to be ready for 6pm tinola jam. i also got a preview of mahasa�s new song. later we did some progress on a new song. too bad juni wasn�t around but kc handled the drums well. and it feels good that i can contribute to the band and the creative process. they are really talented.

papa arrived to fetch me just a few moments after we left the studio. we then passed by dogi�s to pick up part 1 of ninong raul�s pasalubong. dinner and rosary upon arriving. got a weird text from best while we were praying, though, asking me where i am. weird. she hasn�t texted again, though. i guess she�s already sleeping. sure hope she�s fine and well.

an hour before the weekend ends. the best thing about tomorrow, cash card will get reloaded. a little less anxiety because of lack of cash. wow. come to think of it, it was pretty rough this past week because of that. glad i got through it without feeling down. good job.

overtulog

i don’t know but i think my use of the word is close to being excessive. not to mention that i really am having much sleep. or maybe it just seems inappropriately a lot because the timing is off.

with that, saturday happened quite fast. yeah, i woke up to an overseas phonecall from sir danilo. it partly downed me how “noob” we are at design.

the time i spend in front of the computers, i don’t think they’re spent very well. not even for entertainment. time for another attempt at change.

friday and no office tomorrow

sa wakas, isang biyernes na pagtatapos nga ng trabaho sa opisina. walang pasok bukas! wala talaga. nakapagpasa sina arianne, daryl, at jj kanina ng mga drawing. sa lunes, si cesar naman ang bibida.

pero tsaka na. sa lunes na. sa ngayon, ang tumatakbo lang sa isip ko, walang pasok bukas. magpapagupit siguro ako ng buhok bukas. at aatupagin ang mga bagay-bagay na hindi naaatupag dahil pagod o nagpapagod sa opisina.

blue day. the good kind of blue.

kaya pala maraming naka-blue, birthday nga pala ni Mama Mary. sa totoo lang, hindi mabuti ang simula ng araw ko. pagpatak pa lang ng alas-dos� ng hatinggabi, alam kong hindi na ok kasi hindi ako makatulog. malamang dahil sa kape. tapos late ako nagising at tanghali na nakapasok. at hindi ko pa nagamit ang oras na gising para sa kapaki-pakinabang na mga bagay. STAAD�

spoiled ata talaga ako kay Mama Mary. at actually, sa nanay ko rin. kanina, habang nagsisimba, naisip ko kung gaano ko nakikita sa nanay ko ang mahal na ina. kahit sasablay-sablay ako, tulad ngayong araw na wala atang mabuting napala sa opisina, �kinukunsinti� pa rin at binibigyan ng pag-asa. pareho sila.

salamat po. Happy Birthday Mama Mary.

just/already wednesday

i spent monday night in the office and fell asleep again on the sofa last night, tuesday. wow. i�m missing my room. but i really think i should do something about my room. there is restfulness but also laziness here. it isn�t good.

it�s midweek already. actually, it�s just midweek. well, both. ah, yes, it is, afterall, mid. it�s gonna be a bit peaceful at work later. hopefully. and less stressful. projection is smooth working and therefore, happy living in a week.

maybe i�ll go running tonight. but i have to go running tomorrow night.

sleepy kitty

woke up in the sofa today. 24-hour break from office work is almost done.

i guess i did have that happy sunday except for a not so good sleep on my bed in the afternoon. all the rest—hearing Mass at greenbelt chapel, tinola jam, dinner—was fun.

i think i need to have a cooler head, though. especially with my parents. yep. keep cool. cool as a cat. cool as sleepy cat at ROAA music studio.

5-day work week

tutal, pumasok ako nung lunes at medyo nasulit ko ang holiday nung martes, ayos lang naman sigurong pumasok bukas para 5-day work week. maganda ang takbo ng trabaho sa opisina para sa shangrila nitong nagdaang linggo salamat sa tulong ni danilo. para sa rodriguez, ewan. haha.

natapos ang agosto, hindi ko nagawa ang balak kong makatapos ng kanta. ngayong setyembre, isasama ko yun sa goal na matapos ang intake structure at makaluwag sa shangri-la. hmm… may kinalaman pala sa trabaho yun. di bale. kung magagawa naman yun, ibig-sabihin, mas maraming magagawa sa labas ng trabaho. ah, alam ko na. dapat, bukod sa bagong mga kanta na dapat nung nakaraang buwan, dapat matapos ko ang isa man lang sa dalawang nakatokang gundam. at yung nakatokang super happy birthday.

fast forward, sa susunod na buwan, 16.8km sa adidas kotr. at oo nga pala, dapat makabalik na ako sa training sa martes. mahigit isang buwan ang “pahinga” ko.

don’t cut your crosses

you shouldn’t run away from your problems and trials. you have to solve and get through them.

another one of those not so good weekends. probably because of the weather, but i guess my lazyness isn’t just dependent on that. i’m lacking that push i need. the drive, apparently is really hard to find.

watched 2046 last night. will watch in the mood for love this coming week. will go to work tomorrow. hope that tomorrow, the week would start well and end well too. too much to finish, not for the given amount of time, but for the readily available effort.

but yes, problems will end when solved. and when new ones arrive, they should be handled better, easier.

long weekend after a long week

pero papasok pa rin naman sa lunes at martes. haha. ayos lang.

mabigat ang nagdaang limang araw sa trabaho. dalawang gabi ang pinalipas ko sa opisina, lunes at huwebes. hindi ako nakatakbo nung martes at hindi nakagimik nung miyerkules.

mga mga napala naman sa mga oras ng trabaho, pero may mga hindi pa rin natupad sa loob at labas ng opisina. masarap ang tawanan kagabi kasama nina arianne, jj, at liza, sa pagsasara ng nakakapagod na linggo sa trabaho.

kagabi, twitter achievement. ngayon, balik na ako sa pagtuloy ng mga blog na ito dahil tapos na ang isa na namang challenge week na hindi rin ganun kamatagumpay. pero pwede na rin. hindi naman puro palpak. napangiti naman ako at siguro naman, may mga napangitin ring iba.

ngayong sabado, maulan sa labas. tuloy pa rin ang pangangailangan kong ayusin ang mga bagay-bagay sa buhay ko.

sleepy eyes

the weekend’s almost over. i think i’m recharging too much but i think it still isn’t enough.

27th anniversary of residence today. yey. haha. well, i’ve been here since birth. eitherway, a day of thanks. and yes, it’s actually nice and quite appropriate that i spent it enjoying the comfort of sleeping at home.

short end of the tomato

hindi ko nagawa ang una at huli sa mga balak kong gawin ngayong araw na ito. pero ayos lang. sa kasalukuyan, ako’y busog pa sa victory party namin sa el buono, at sa wakas, nakapangumpisal na uli ako.

refreshing ang araw na ito dahil din naulanan. pero kung tutuusin, masyado akong nagpahinga ngayong agosto. napatagal ang recovery period ko dahil hindi rin tumaas nang todo ang dami ng napapala ko sa opisina. dapat makatakbo na uli ako sa martes.

hindi pa ako sigurado kung sa adidas king of the road o sa run united 3 ako uli sasali. kung anuman, sa susunod na buwan o sa nobyembre pa naman yun. ngayong agosto, ang dapat kong mapala na hindi nauugnay sa trabaho, makatapos ng mga kanta.

friday nights at home

and it was filling. had spaghetti then rice and giniling then a bit of baked mac. spent most of the night texting and watching tv.

today was one of those days that could have been better but didn’t turn out to be so bad. i really need to go to greenbelt chapel tomorrow.

plans for tomorrow: sideline, “overtime”, el buono, greenbelt, alabang.

i’ll have that veggie ramen on monday.

parang tanga lang talaga

hindi ko alam kung anong kailangan kong gawin para umayos ang pakiramdam ko ngayon. nakadepende ata talaga sa ibang tao.

prison?

it seems to be no freedom for me tonight. haha. oh well. will have to make the best of the day today.

hindi dahil 3in1, mabuting ideya uminom ng 3+1

pero umepekto naman din. medyo naging hyperactive. maya-maya, hyperacidic. salamat sa nescafé 3in1 strong and rich.

inaantok ako. burnout? o hindi lang talaga kaya ng katawan simula pa lang? basta, dapat kayanin. dapat maging magaling.

mukhang wala akong masyadong natapos kanina. nakarami lang ng ingles sa product presentation ng supplier ng expansion joints. oh yeah. bukas, big day. kailangang maging big day at rocking night!

lifting weights

i have a feeling i won’t be going home early tonight. work. well, i’m not early afterall.

onion rings

hindi ako na-late kaninang umaga pero nakatanggap ako ng email na nagpaalala sa akin na late na naman ako sa commitments.

umaga, meryenda/agahan, tuna sandwich mula sa mr. donut. may kabagalan ang pakiramdam ng umaga at may kabilisan ang oras. tanghalian, chicken sandwich sa burger king. lunch out kasama si ailene. take out ng onion rings para matuwa si iris pero kahit ata wala, tila tuwang-tuwa naman sila ni cesar.

hindi ako nakauwi nang maaga gaya ng inaasahan. nagkita pa kami ni dian saglit bago ako nagtungo sa mcs para bilhin ang pouch ng bagong myphone ng tatay ko. natulog ako sa sofa pagkatapos maghapunan at maya-maya, nang gising na ako at nakatapos na sina mama ng rosaryo, medyo hyper sa facebook sa cellphone habang nakahiga pa rin sa sofa.

maraming hindi mabuting tila umuulit at hindi natatapos. parang onion rings lang ba, bilog, umiikot lang? pag kinagat ang onion ring, napuputol ang bilog.

andito sa pilipinas si paris hilton. nakita ko pa kahapon ang billboard ng azure at may pagkakaugnay pala siya doon. paalala ng mga hindi ko natapos. may hindi pa ako natatapos ngayon. kailangang makatapos. kailangang kagatin ang onion ring.

tama na ang softdrinks

yesterday morning, we went to bulakan to attend Mass and visit lolo, lola, and tita cory at the cemetery. stopped by at ate' fe’s for some pancit. pancit was great and i owe a lot of it to the bathroom break. we didn’t get to drop by the house since we didn’t have much to do. hopefully we’ll get back there some time soon with buds handling some work to be done.

lunch at waltermart by 1pm. cute thing happened when i got back from the restroom to wash my hands, a kid, maybe 2years old, was walking then looked at me then came to me. i was sitting there amazed at how cute the scene was.

tinola jam by 6+pm. i went home rather late. nice jam with new drummer. it was great of goey to recommend him and give us a ride. ack. i need a ride.

best and i have been texting these past days and i thanked her last night on how i tended to be down but her company lifted me enough.

today was so so at work except that i think i did some progress for the intake structure requirements. tomorrow, more things to accomplish at the office. work and non-work related.

a simple compliment. wow. i’m actually having difficulty delivering. interesting. very.

liwanag ng buwan

tulog ako halos ngayong sabado. stressed at walang nagawang mabuti at kapakipakinabang. kailangang baliktarin.

pero masaya kagabi. matapos ang work week, kumain kami nina arianne, iris, cesar, at tristan sa korean restaurant sa ortigas. masaya at nasarapan naman ako sa pagkain. at soju. nostalgic ang lasa ng soju. medyo nostalgic din ang pakikipaglaban sa mrt.

pagkatapos kumain at maglakad nang malayo pabalik sa edsa, nagtungo ako sa 77. natrafik lang sa cubao pagkababa ni tristan at sa gma ako bumaba. nawala nang konti dahil sa timog ako naglakad at nag-taxi na lang para makarating sa 77.

matao pala pero natagpuan ko rin sina cara, john, at kasama niya. panalo ang pagkain at naka-2 redhorse ako at kalahati nung green bottled san miguel beer na hindi inubos ni sunny na late dumating.

masarap ang kwentuhan. dapat nga gawin namin yun �once every convenient span of time.� sumabay ako kay john pauwi, at sa edsa, napansin ko ang liwanag ng buwan kahit may kaunting ulap.

visitation rights

may karapatan na akong tapusin ang mga kulang ko sa rodriguez intake structure. sana kaya. konti na lang. para malibre ko na rin sina sir tj at maam raizel ng kape.

patapos na pala ang work week bukas. sana pagpatak ng alas-sais, tapos na nga at sa lunes na uli. gala. gala. gala!

gray water

it’s not the end of that story. err.. storey? haha.

got home quite early to rest. will probably get to sleep relatively earlier tonight. things seem and should be going for the better at work although still not there at the moment. shaping up.

i should shape up physically, too. i should get back at it. skipped jogging tonight but did some (quite a few, really) reps with my free weights. and yes, spaghetti. haha. i think i have to secure myself of pasta.

over time after time

ang tagal ko nang hindi nakapag-o.t. nang ganito, gabi na pero hindi sa opisina natulog. pero ayoko nang mag-overtime bukas. kailangang maging mas efficient na kami. at kailangang pumasok bukas nang maaga para sa mga hahabulin. hindi kagandahan na naman ang simula ng araw ko. simula, bale paglampas ng cinderella time, gising pa ako. at wala namang nagagawang kapaki-pakinabang. bukas, bukas. isa na namang bukas na inaasahan. salamat at may bukas pa.+

is this the turning point?

the weekend was bleh. got som scolding last friday. did some o.t. last saturday. slacked off at home yesterday. come monday, i think i was smiling most of the time. still unaccomplished, but wanting to find that drive even more.

drastic change at the office today: switched places. i put the shangri-la team in my cubicle. i hope we get much further with this setup.

maybe the balance diet is really does have good effects on me. and a happy phonecall really makes one, well, happy. getting along with the people at work does help. above all, having faith and not fearing does a lot. +

i have debts of calcs and drawings and i’m not sure how to deal with them given new imposed rules. and i gotta give some time after office hours to some more work. these are gonna be challenging days. i look forward to a happy weekend.

in case of fire, click ok and run

this morning�s seminar was good. this afternoon�s time at the office wasn�t so. also, i had pretty strong opinions. i hope i didn�t hurt people with those.

i felt guilty for not minding the kid who played some beats for some cash. Lord, please bless him. and money matters and that big problem i�m facing with it, they don�t seem to be getting better.

good feeling tonight, i got to pray the rosary again with my family. gotta get back at keeping prayer consistent in my life.

not good with goodbyes

hindi ako sanay mag-bye bye. last day ni bianca kanina sa office at medyo matabang ang araw. ayun, mukhang malungkot nga siya. sayang, walang despedida. marami kasing wala.

tingin ko, medyo nakapagpaalam na ako sa kanya. nagkaroon na rin ng transition mula sa pagiging kaibigan sa office papunta sa kaibigan sa labas ng office nung makahalubilo ko siya at ang kanyang bf at mga kabanda kagabi hanggang kaninang madaling-araw.

nagkape kami ni arianne kasama sina jj at iris. kape ngayon. salit-salit. kape-beer-kape. bukas, good luck sa office.

recovery period

palakad-lakad na uli ako sa office kanina. tila naghilom na ang mga binti ko. pressure sa office pero medyo maganda ang nadudulot na pakiramdam ng pagpunta sa meeting. bukod pa sa medyo nakakabili/nakaw ng oras para sa mga ipapasa.

kailangang magrelax.

new wave

well, nothing really about new wave music. new month and i hope i get to fix my march/august problem. haha. nothing new really, but yeah, i really need to get that newness.

some smiles weren’t present today and it was noted. reasons to be sad, reasons to not smile. gotta get people smiling. well, i think i did succeed in getting smiles today and giving some, too.

the song keeps playing in my head, though. shawn mullin’s lullaby. “rock-a-bye… bye… bye…”

kaya naman

lumampas sa time limit. walang bag pero may medal at certificate. ayos lang, masarap pa rin tumakbo. at least hindi dnf. gg ako dun sa pangalawang 18k mark.

na-conclude ko na hindi sapat ang nasa lower limit ng ideal weight. hindi ideally fit ang katawan ko. may sapat na panahon pa naman ata bago ang susunod na pwedeng salihang takbo.

hindi ko rin nga pala nagawa yung milo everyday. yun. kaya nga. at hindi rin kasi ako nagsimba bago tumakbo. hehe. mamaya, 5pm, simba. 7pm, victory party. bukas, opisina.

medyo naipagmayabang ko na ang aking minor accomplishment sa mga taong inspirasyon ko sa pagtakbo. sa susunod, mas gagandahan ko pa ang takbo para sa kanila rin. sa ngayon, pahinga.

clear skies and good luck

not the best preparation day today. eitherway, i hope and pray for clear skies and a good race tomorrow. +

regeneration

malapit nang mag-hatinggabi. dapat magpahinga hanggang bukas bago ang takbo sa linggo. hyped ako. sana, magawa nang tama at mahusay. sa ilang sandali, huhugasan ko ang pinagkainan ko at iinom ng protein drink. magpapababa muna ako ng kinain bago matulog. mahalaga ang bukas para sa makalawa. kailangang galingan. +

LKJ

it was my turn to be KJ tonight. i wish i joined them but i really needed to sleep. i didn’t have enough energy to join arianne, daryl, cesar, bianca, dan, and iris. i didn’t even have enough drive to join the midnight runners for one last training session.

another lacking day at work. a little calmer with a rough start. and stress doesn’t seem to be only in our struct group since ailene’s been doing overtime the other day and today. ah, we gotta get back at enjoying the night after a day’s work. i promised them and myself that next week will be less stressful and even stressfree if possible.

binabagyo tayo

umuulan na naman. tumigil lang nang kaunti kagabi. tila binabagyo na ang buhay ko. pero ambon pa lang. pero ngayon, hindi na ako magpapatalo.

i won’t get in my way

i’m liking that song from mr. big’s new album. yep. that’s gonna be my driving force in the coming days.

late for work, not as much accomplished as expected, went home late despite early out announcement because of the rain. i will keep going though. go further!

ABC

kakaibang overtime. tila malaking bahagi ng overnight overtime ko ay pagbigay lang ng morale support. at pagdating ng umaga, umuwi at hindi nakapasok sa oras. may ilang napala sa maghapon pero kulang pa rin. sa gabi, pasimula sa bagong hamon sa propesyon.

masayang makipag-asaran kay arianne. pinakapanalo sa lahat, ABC� isang maganda sa mga ganitong pangyayari sa buhay, nakikilala ang iba at napapakilala ang sarili sa iba.

kanina, parang nasa videogame lang nung papasok ako. at limitado ang maaaring daanan at kailangang alamin at gawin nang tama. at parang sa action videogame, sana mag-level up na sa buhay ko. pati sa buhay ng mga mahal ko.

walk off

dry run this morning, woke up to another �dream sequence� but this time, it was venjo and apparently i was running late. funny, the dream i was having before waking up had me being called by my mother to go down to the construction site.

run was ok for the first part and the second half became a walk because of not so good gastro-intestinal activities. 3 and a half hours. how do you cut and hour from your time? gotta do that in a week.

not so good afternoon. lazy afternoon. i think i did a half marathon at home, well, of season two of community. the irony, i was doing so to get my mind off a certain name that managed to show up in this morning�s jog (while i was still jogging). fate, please don�t play me.

and speaking of fate, i sure hope my best friend�s fate goes well. i expressed how difficult it is when she�s sad and was actually thinking of bailing out. but then, what kind of best friend would i be if i did so? i guess she got me when she said i give her strength. that bit of acknowledgement makes everything worth it.

10pm. i gotta get to sleep early and start tomorrow well.

mahirap makatulog

malapit nang mag-cinderella time. hindi pa ako masyadong inaantok dahil sa sarap ng tulog ko sa sala kaninang hapon. oks lang sana pero kailangan kong gumising nang maaga bukas para sa tentative dry run.

hindi na naman ganoon kabuti ang pakiramdam ko kaninang umaga. buti na lang, pagdating ng gabi, wala na ang sakit ng ngipin. yung ibang sakit, ewan. bwahahaha.

lazy saturday, kako nga. walang nagawa para mabawasan ang trabaho at sakit ng ulo na magbabalik sa lunes. pero sige lang, wag mawalan ng pag-asa.

pagdating sa techie side, nalutas ko na rin sa wakas ang misteryosong unknown used space na meron pala dito sa netbook. system restore ang may sala. ayun, na-recover ko na rin pati doon sa laptop ni mama.

nae-excite din ako sa pagdating ng bagong amd fx processors na malamang ay sa setyembre lalabas ayon sa comic-themed youtube promo video. kaadikan. sana, pag nakumpleto ko na ang super desktop ko, makapag-focus naman ako sa ibang binabalak pagkakagastusan o pag-iipunan.

braces, the painful cost of a smile

had an ok half day at work this afternoon. took home the dccd anniversary lunch and it surprisingly tasted well. stayed a little later to wait for arianne and iris and went straight home since i had to take home my amp. it was cool that i got acknowledged today for lending it. haha.

i honestly can�t remember why i felt bad in or about my dream thus the �badtrip panaginip� line of the day. nevertheless, it�s a fun thing to go around.

news from my best, she won 2nd place in their fun run. can�t help but be proud of her. i wish i could let her and my troubles run away, though, but i guess the least and best to do is to dedicate prayers for those most special to us.

tonight, ate went home to cavite with buds. she�s recovering quickly. i cried later tonight with her simple note on my door. happy sad tears.

days, even teeth-adjusting days, we can get through them because of even bits of happiness and smiles.

i’m in pain

half day ako ngayon at papasok mamaya dahil nagpa-adjust na naman ako ng braces sa dentista. hindi pa rin makabitan ng retainers. may kabigatan din ang pakiramdam ko ngayon dahil sa pag-overtime kagabi. hindi ko alam gaano ang napala namin pero kahit papaano, may mas gusto akong direksyon sa ginagawa.

bukod sa sakit ng ngipin, meron din akong sakit sa damdamin. oo, tila hindi epektibo ang denial sa ibang aspeto. ayos lang din. masarap naman ang lunch kahapon sa tapa king. pagbalik sa opisina, hindi na nga lang ganun ka-ok ang araw. nahahati ang puso ko kahapon sa lungkot at saya. haha. tila ang emo ko humirit. pero kagabi, sinabi ko rin sa sarili ko, “there is no plan b. plan a na lang kaya?” tsk. wala na lang. go with the drive na lang. makikita rin ang nais puntahan.

some people watch tv

got pressured at work in the morning. afternoon at the site meeting went pretty well. i’m getting comfortable with our foreign counterparts, stopping to chit-chat when i was starting to jog with venjo, goey, kevin, and his cousin later that night. too bad i wasn’t able to answer david sze’s question, “why do you jog?”

i also got my “keep the faith” band from bianca today. advocacies, i think i have to write a song about the fight against cancer.

home sweet home, sweet spaghetti. i wish i didn’t have to wake my mother up just for her to heat the left over sauce. she could have just texted me instructions to heat the sauce after i got my share. but i think that was the best text i got during the night, my mother informing me of spaghetti sauce and asking if i prefer macaroni or spaghetti.

10 days to go, not yet ready. gotta shape up. go go go!

lipad, oras, lipad

sabi, “time flies when you’re having fun.” kanina, ang bagal ng oras sa opisina. at wala sa aming nag-OT. wala rin kasi si iris.

marahil, malungkot nga ako. hindi naman sobra. hindi dapat. pero ayos lang. ngayon ko lang naisip, at kailangan kong bilisan ang blog post na ito, kailangan kong makapagsulat ngayong gabi. “sad enough, happy enough.”

sana healthy enough din. tingin ko, maayos-ayos naman ang pagkain ko ngayong araw na ito. bukas din dapat. at hanggang sa mga susunod na araw. dapat mabuti ang pagkain para sa takbo sa katapusan ng buwan.

kailangang lumipad. kahit hindi siguro umabot sa kalawakan.

midnight runners

yeah. and it’s the 19th already. i was 25 and a half yesterday. i spent most of the day at the site coordination meeting and back there later in the evening for some training. midway through the year, i think the day was pretty mediocre in a technical point of view. in a non-technical, it turned out to be fun despite me expecting it not to be. i should start my days not expecting it to be bad. it would likely be much much better.

chord progression

lunes na naman bukas. ang bilis ng araw na ito. sa totoo lang, mabagal pala. nakapagrelax naman nang todo. pero bitin pa rin.

mga hindi ko nagawa: bawasan ang trabaho bukas at makapagsulat ng kanta.

mga nagawa ko: bagong rhythm para sa bagong kanta at matulungan ang tatay ko sa pagkakabit ng tarpauline ng fern c.

nakapagsimba rin ako kaninang umaga kasama ang aking nanay kahit na ang balak sana ay samahan ang ate ko.

pahinga. kilos!

sing sing

i received some news today. i’ll be waiting for february. learning old news that is in no way good tonight got me really mad. i guess i should simply be glad it’s over.

had a jam session with thad and dogi in the morning. yeah! i think the song structure, music-wise, is good to go. lyrics, to follow. gotta have them don by wednesday morning. well, gotta finish some work stuff before, though.

afternoon, badminton groupies. haha. team had a win (by default) and a loss (more like owning). good enough, and i think, at least they had fun.

later, tokyo tokyo. default meal—pork tonkatsu bento. fun how we stayed for more than an hour and that charlie managed to join us even after we’ve eaten. night out. haha. alas, i had a weekend trip. mini roadtrip (dropoff) after c/o bianca and maria.

lift your head

tila hindi talaga natatapos ang linggo sa opisina na maraming natatapos. ayos lang. sige lang. laban pa.

pero masarap mag-lunch out. nakaka-miss din ang pagkain sa labas tuwing lunch break. at medyo panalo rin na walang boss halos buong araw. hahaha.

masaya ngayong gabi dahil nagdasal kaming pamilya ng rosaryo sa simbahan ng san ildefonso habang nandun ang imahe ng Birhen ng Manaoag. sarap. kahit trafik at magulo ang lansangan dahil ika-15 at biyernes, ayos lang. kahit tila ngarag ang staff sa chowking at wala nang siomai at ilang iba pang pagkain, masarap pa rin.

may dahilan man para maging malungkot, dapat ngumiti. at sa paghahanap ng pahahalagahan, dapat hindi mawala ang dati nang mahalaga. wala lang. ilan lang sa mga dumadaan sa isip ko habang nakikipagtext ngayong gabi. pero ang pinakamatindi talaga ngayong araw na ito, hindi nga nagiging butterfly ang grasshopper.

not a walk in the park

i woke up this morning with a problem on the intake structure. talk about ghosts. well, sleep was pretty nice with a dream and the line “ang ganda ng lips mo,” and things that happened before that and the spaghetti after was really comic. of course, i just had to tell part of the story to my officemates.

ooh, it’s friday already. i’m not getting and i really can’t tell any happy stories for this week now. but hey, we still have friday.

my feet ache. 13 of supposedly 15 laps. 3 hours. cramps on the start of the 12th. gg. sat for 2 laps. finished the cooldown lap. i need to fix my diet starting in the morning. haha. i had tuna paella for dinner when i got home less than an hour ago.

wow. it’s friday already.

are we halfway there?

midweek, konti pa. konti na lang ba? basta, kakayanin. dapat.

weakening week?

bad start. not so much happened to make things better. and it’s already midweek tomorrow.

i decided i won’t go to he korn concert. sadly, deciding to not do things is easier than deciding to do things and succeeding in doing so. change… change… change…

bearing pressure

ano ba to? hindi na tama ito.

jazz blues

i think i’m gonna get used to hearing Mass in the morning again. it makes my sunday feel better. i still like the feeling of hearing Mass in the afternoon as a preparation for the coming week. eitherway, going to Mass rocks!

had a jam session with tinola today. nice. i’m liking the feel of the band’s sound. playing in another band, it gives me the drive to do well in my main band.

it’ll be monday in a few hours. gotta make the coming week awesome.

sakit ng ngipin ngayong sabado

overtime pero sandali lang. nakakahiya talaga sa mga ojt. nakakahiya ako. apparently, hindi ko mapakita sa boss ko at sa mga kasama ko kung gaano talaga ako kagaling. overrated pa rin. pero masarap din ang pakiramdam, minor accomplishment kanina—makapagpadala ng drawing list. ang babaw. grabe. ganito na ata ako ka-unaccomplised sa buhay.

malakas ang ulan kaninang hapon. sulit ang kapote. haha. nag-ikot ako nang konti sa mcs para ipaayos ang bag ni ate sa mr. quickie at bumili ng cmos battery para sa pc ni tristan sa office. dumaan akong plaza fair at tila inuubos na lang ang paninda. ewan kung kailan magsasara. o baka magrerenovate. ewan. sana hindi naman magsara yung mismong makati square. medyo monumento yun, e.

pag-uwi, tambay sa sala. oo nga no di ako nakapag-siyesta. sana maganda ang araw ko bukas. dapat. siguro wala na rin ang sakit ng ngipin ko bukas dahil sa adjustment ng braces. maraming hirap at sakit pero hindi dapat kalimutang tumanaw para sa kabutihang darating.

downpour

not the best day this week. not the best friday in recent days. missed the mark again.

it wasn’t so bad though, thanks to burger king whopper and finding out how to check the design strips right.

gotta make up for things. work tomorrow and next week’s gonna be much better. that would be for work, jogging, and rock & roll.

first string 7th fret on standard tuning 4-string bass

nakakuha ako ng beat ngayong gabi. sana tuloy lang sa mga susunod na araw.

kailangan ko na rin nga palang tanggaping sira na ang aking cdrking mouse dahil nabagsak ko nung isang araw. hindi lang pala yung cable retracting mechanism ang nabasag. sira rin pala yung mismong left button. oh well.

hindi siguro na-achieve ang perfect day ngayon pero good day pa rin sa trabaho. mas maganda sana pero mabuti na rin. nasabi kong ganoon nga dahil hindi nakakabagot na kahit binalak kong umuwi nang 6pm, 7pm na naman ako nakaalis ng office. bumili ako ng siomai at nag-claim ng starbucks coffee pag-uwi. credit card promo dinner sa amin. well, plus siomai.

beat, beat, beat, beat, beat, beat, rhythm. itutuloy ko yung rhythm salamat sa mga kanta galing kina bianca, arianne, at ailene. so far, sa kylie minogue song, get out of my way, na suggestion ni bianca pa lang ako nakuha ng beat at nakapag-record ng rhythm. ewan ko lang kung mate-trace ang influence. kung anuman, salamat din at may nasimulan na naman akong kanta kahit konting tugtog  pa lang. tungkol saan kaya ito magiging?

lumabas ako ng bahay kaninang umaga papuntang opisina at dineklarang hindi uulan. pagbaba ko ng jeep, nagsimulang umambon nang malakas. naglakad ako papuntang opisina, hindi kinuha ang kapote ko. dumating akong basang-basa. buti hindi ako nagkasakit. sana hindi nga magkasakit. pakiramdam ko, pagbabasbas ang pagbuhos ng ulan sa akin kanina. hanggang ngayon, nararamdaman ko pa rin. sana, may maialay ako bilang pagpapasalamat.

is this what�s called artistic restraint

i found it difficult to sleep. it wasn�t a good night..err..early morning. i thank God today wasn�t as bad as it could have been yet bad enough to have better days ahead.

morning, boss was early and the team had quite a meeting. later, i was back to what i usually do. by afternoon, i�ve gone tired. i planned to go home by 530 but i stayed untl 7. well, at least we�ve got the design results started.

i walked home. i think i was feeling anti-gravity. the incubus and korn concerts really got some talking going on. interesting. very interesting.

sleepy. i had pizza and wanted to skip dinner but adobo, i just can�t skip that. 7-7 tomorrow. interesting day. hope it becomes one of those perfect days.

increasing kPa

eto na ang pressure sa project. antagal ng cruch time. pinakamaganda atang nangyari ngayon sa project, nakita ang nawawalang cd na hindi naman pala nawawala. wala lang talaga sa amin ni maam che.

nalaman ko rin na interesting option ang korn concert sa august 10. pero ewan. mahal kasing presyo ng incubus concert sa july 28. siguro, regarding music, focus muna ako sa audition ko sa sunday na hindi ko pa napaghahandaan. ack.

kinakabog ako. crunch time. crunch time.

racket

i didn’t go jogging for something else. i think i’m in denial that i’m doing something. although i’m admiting it as “ninja” to my barkada. oh well. i don’t want to give it much thought.

there was a lot of panic and still unfinished stuff at work today. i’m losing control. snap. snap. i need to snap back into control. i think i can. yes. i can’t lose.

i won’t be sleeping on time tonight as per my ideal daily sched. hope i wake up on time and do some catching up at work. the bed is quite inviting, though, as it has newly replaced sheets and so are the pillow cases. i quite miss my bed since i was evicted from my room last night by a flying cockroach whose remains have yet to be seen. and if ever it survived the insecticed attack, then it shall die by me. hahaha.

green cross. i just noticed the bottle of green cross here on my desk. hope. i hope tomorrow will be a great day. green is also the brand color for milo. ack. another thing i don’t want to give much thought. haha. this is getting fun/complicated.

dala

11am ako nagsimba kanina kasama sina ate, adette at judith. hindi kagandahan ang gising ko, ewan ba. buti na lang, nagawa kong magsimba nun. sabi sa Gospel reading ngayon, “cast your burdens upon Me…” sabi ng pari, hindi naman daw sinabing go to the mall, spend money, drink, smoke, etc. ibigay daw sa Diyos ang mga pasanin sa buhay at bibigyan ka ng ginhawa. matigas talaga ulo ng tao, mahina, simple lang naman yun. bakit hindi ko nagagawa?

nagising ako bago mag-6 ng gabi, hindi ko mawari kung anong araw. tila bitin ang weekend. isa sa mga positive side every week, bawat linggo, pwedeng tingnan bilang bagong simula. kung tutuusin, pwedeng bawat araw, pero mas sakto ang pattern sa pagpalit ng linggo kumpara sa pagpalit ng araw o ng buwan. bagay pala na simulan na bukas ang ginawa ko kahapong ideal daily schedule. tama.

wake up

woke up on time but wasn’t able to go jogging. so much for that. i did a rough estimate of an ideal daily schedule instead after i did some cardio. later, it was fail time as the morning wasn’t so well. attending the opening for the tournament was quite boring. what would i have done without my cellphone and had people not replied.

i had lunch at kfc in quiapo instead of having a free lunch at the astrodome since i was quite uncomfortable there. after lunch, i said a short prayer in the church and i guess things turned out better since then. for one, the sun shined. it started to pour when i was on the lrt.

got myself a music stand and a mic holder for the mic stand. i went home and had yakisoba and popcorn with ate while we were “starbucks mode” in the sala with our laptops.

i fell asleep and woke up to a phone call from kevin. it was like a dream sequence. he made me go to max’s. i obliged. not long after, i arrived at max’s with domeng already there, then goey arrived next, then kevin, then dogi+ced(?).

pre-after party was spent here as kevin needed to copy my ms office installer and waited for dogi. after party should now be on at goey’s place with the ps3 although domeng’s already home since he has a run tomorrow.

day turned out to be ok, but i’m quite full and need to get rid of unpleasant fat.

sweet spot

di ko alam status namin sa shangri-la project. pero kaya yan. hahabol. swerte ko talaga sa teammates. pakiramdam ko talaga, ako patalo. pero di yan. kailangang hindi mawala ang positive outlook.

friday at wala akong lakad. late kasi ako nakapasok, at ewan, nakakainis, tinamad akong magsimba. tsk tsk tsk. naghanap na lang ako ng shorts na may zipper ang bulsa (pero walang nahanap), at bumili ng windows 7 home premium fpp para sa x3-pc. kung meron lang sanang victory celebration inuman party thing sina bianca para sa pagkaka-gold thesis nila, sasama sana ako. adik lang sa lakad. pero malamang hindi rin pala ako makakapunta dahil may mga balak para bukas ng umaga. buti na lang din at walang celebration inuman party thing kanina pero sabi naman, sasabihan ako pag meron.

di ko alam kung tuloy ang jogging namin bukas nang madaling araw, pero panalo yung binigay ni ailene kanina kapalit ng mrt card na binigay ko sa kanya noon isang araw. snickers. hindi ako fan ng snickers dahil sa tamis, pero yung bite sized, panalo, sweet spot, sakto. tamang-tama. stock para sa traning kahit kinain ko na yung isa kanina.

kailangang magpahinga at matulog nang maaga. kailangan ng energized weekend.

so much for shined shoes

had an ok jog last night. and we’ve already registered for the milo marathon. i got race bib number 21968. goey got lucky and got 21969. i need to improve a lot, though. i almost had cramps on our 9th lap and all 10 took an hour and a half.

i can’t remember much of office day yesterday except that i’m lucky to have arianne in my team. yes, she and our ojt’s get distracted easily but i think they get much more work done than i do.

venjo’s yellow raincoat is also already mine since last night. and today, it rained. i wished it would rain when i left home for work. by noontime, it was raining hard. nice. i hesitated at first but i still got to use the raincoat on my and ailene’s way back from bdo med plaza.

rain stopped late afternoon. it seemed that it would start falling hard again when bianca and i left. i walked home with my raincoat as she went to her ride. not long after, i took it off as it was merely drizzling. i bought some instant yakisoba for ate and the ac spliter adapter thing i’ve been meaning to buy at waltermart. it started to drizzle and i put my coat on again. it stopped when i was near home and i arrived perspiring. haha.

it felt nice to have dinner at home again since i didn’t have dinner here last night. not to mention praying the rosary with mama, papa, ate, and buds.

i can’t believe it’s already friday tomorrow. i think it’s turning out to be  a good week. i’ll just have to clean today’s shoes and also clean up some stuff tomorrow.

sloppy

hindi mabuti ang simula ng araw ko. di ko matantsa kung bumuti paglaon. tila naman. dapat naman.

hindi ako nakapag-mayjerowtee… kanina at nabusog sa pa-birthday ni adette na chicken all you can. nakaka-tatlong beses na ako at consistent na apat ang nakakain ko. hehe.

midweek bukas, bukas ang office workstation ko ngayon. dapat makapagpasa ng mga kailangang ipasa. dapat major progress. siguro sa thursday, may maayos na akong work strategy plan schedule thing.

big day bukas. submissions sa umaga at hapon sa office. catch up din sa training sa gabi. hindi na pwedeng maging sloppy.

columns of tasks

i really have to get the rush going for me. i also need to turn distractions to inspirations.

another easy monday today. nothing much to say about it.

shoe boxes

nakapag-ayos ako ng mga box dito. medyo. yung mga “kalat” sa malaking box, nalipat ko sa ilang box ng sapatos. nilipat ko na rin yung plastic box sa ilalim ng drafting table. may na-recover akong floor area dahil nailalagay ko na sa ilalim nitong upuan ko yung stool. sakto pala.

nakapagwalis-walis din ako. medyo maaliwalas na ang kwarto ko. medyo. marami pa ring random na pagkakatambak. mas organized na lang ang kalat ko. hahaha.

kasabay nito, sana mas umaliwalas na rin ang buhay.

shoe shine

it wasn’t a good morning. i woke up 3 times before getting up. and it was raining still. i wasn’t feeling good though, even after it stopped.

but i just had to get up and go. the rain has stopped and it would have been great to go out and play. there was even slightly enough catalyst for me to sign out of ym and facebook just after finishing some work related conversation with kevin. i was ready to go out, maybe buy, a plug adapter at handyman and do some atm stuff but bibingka got me. then cornic. then grape juice.

i did quite a few little things here today, disconnected from the internet. i managed to fix my sister’s room’s door’s problem. the bottom hinge needed to be removed so that the door could be closed properly. there’s an misalignment issue. most likely due to warping of the wood for the door jamb.

i shined my shoes and found out the use of shoe stretchers. i now have my two pairs of leather shoes with them. i also realized, i relearned the use of the vice grip while my father and i were fixing the rusty screw on his old shoe stretcher.

later, i went oc mode. i made a database of my handkerchiefs and pants. i actually meant to tidy up boxes but the handkercheifs were there and just had to be logged now. haha.

dinner here was great. max’s fried chicken. i greeted tito nonong a happy birthday again. it was quite embarassing to forget to greeting him the other day so i also greeted him a belated happy birthday last night when i got home.

maybe i’ll do the boxes after this. maybe i’ll get back at writing or practice some cover songs. weekend’s turning out to be ok for me. i hope it carries on. there really is that fear that i may not. but yes, most of it is upto me.

obeer

uwian nang 3pm. obeertime kasama sina sir fx, liza, erick, daryl, bianca, tristan, iris, at dan. naka-2 pale pilsen lang ako. hahaha.

medyo sablay at hindi na naman productive sa office. may take home. dapat magawa. week to impress all next week. go!

tahimik na kaninang konti pero bumubuhos na naman ngayon. sana tumigil na nga ang ulan. sana umaraw na ngayong weekend. at sana hindi mag-iwan ng bakas ng lungkot ang ulan.

stay-in

morning work was stressful since i was asked to attend the conference call. i don�t know if i should feel good or not about it when it was going on. had lunch at little tokyo with my boss then i concluded that our sales attendant at pc express sucks.

afternoon was funny and light. after work, apparently, it was raining hard. i rushed to mmc to be of help since my mother was having the chills. she got a fever. good thing ate�s already able to walk. she�s ok now.

been texting with best, iris, jj, dan, tristan, and biance since ate was using the sun wireless on mama�s laptop. i�m using it now on my netbook which i charged at the office while i was at the site.  iris is still at the office. hope she get�s home safe later.

too bad i can�t be friendly with ate�s nurse this shift. i heard her name is stephanie and she lives in las pi�as. she�s pretty. i think she�s prettier than the one the other day. oh well.

i don�t know how calm or not it is outside. the storm�s pretty heavy. buds insists that he stay here for tonight and we think it�s best that mama have her rest at home. i�m guessing papa and buds will be able to go here by 11pm.

bantay ospital

i'm at makati med. will be sleeping here tonight since buds will go home.

i've set up mama's laptop and my office pc for remote access. ah yes, the simplicity of windows live mesh. i even returned to the office after having a slice of pizza to connect my workstation the the network. i turned off the ip phone avr when i left the office earlier. good thing, the office is not 3 minutes away.

problem is, as expected, i won't be able to do any work. sleepy. gotta get home and back to work early tomorrow.

work hours were fun despite the pressure. from pet and street names to carlo magno with white flowers for the fair beauty to breaktime. quite productive still. quite. hope tomorrow will be as fun and still more productive.

outside work, i downloaded what if..., wasting light, and awesome as f**k last night. i haven't listened to green day's live album, but i gotta grab a cd of the two. well, i might get the third, too, but as of now, i'm liking foo fighters', and mr. big's is just great. music, ah yes. what awesome distraction, what awesome relaxation.

cork

nakakakaba ang trabaho. nararamdaman ko na ang pressure. buti may mga makakatulong sa akin. bukas, mapapasabak. aayusin ang ilang buwang worth ng sablay.

may hindi magandang balita sa opisina kanina. pumanaw na si sir roman. siya’y aalalahanin. nakita ko kanina ang binigay sa akin ni angel na cork na galing kay sir roman. “simbolo ng walang-hanggang pagkakaibigan.”

kauuwi ko lang mula sa ospital. nagpapagaling na si ate. naghihintay lang maglabas ng hangin sa tiyan. mabuti rin at mabuti na ang pakiramdam ni mama at kasama ni buds, sinasamahan nila si ate ngayong gabi.

kailangang matulog nang maaga ngayon. kailangang gumising nang maaga bukas. may mga kailangang matupad bukas. sa biyernes, magkakasiyahan kami nina bianca, iris, dan, arianne, at kung sinong iba pang sasama.

rainy days and mondays

always get me down. i slept from throught the afternoon to early evening, from 3pm to 7pm.

i’ve always thought holidays are healthy breaks from work. it should be true depending on how you spend it. yep, the problem’s with me. maybe it’s also because of the difference of these days from last year’s. holidays aren’t healthy for me unless i do something about it.

my mother’s not feeling well and my sister’s having her operation tomorrow. gotta be a good boy these coming days. who knows, i might get used to it and be the good person i’ve been needing to be these coming weeks, months, and years.

beer belly

araw ng mga tatay ngayon at sa simpleng selebrasyon, nabusog ako.

text, tulog, at konting nood ang ginawa ko ngayon. malamig ang panahon dahil sa ulan. nakaka-relax. nakaka-relax nga ang araw na iyo.

1692011

i almost forgot, today is the 169th day of the year. it would have been a great day to have max’s chicken-all-you-can with the group today. i might be having it with college friends tonight, though.

talking about android phones (and bashing the nokia n8) made me want to have a droid for myself. good thing the xperia neo is just too pricey for me. i like the idea of gadgets to distract oneself from depression. although i really like gadgets. well, not so much buying them.

i don’t know why i mentioned it but i’m lucky with my gadget purchases. just right for me. no wanting/needing to sell/give away any of these—my cellphone, my netbook, my pc—just because i found out what i have isn’t what i need. or maybe i just don’t change my needs much.

it might rain but i’ll leave my windows open. i hope it doesn’t rain hard tonight. unlike before, i’m unsure if i’d be happy or sad if it did.

mushroomy

hindi masyadong nakakabusog pero naaliw ako sa pagtrip. pupunta sa malayo at babalik din pauwi. mushroom burger katipunan kasama sina ailene, tristan, at gp.

medyo naaliw at hindi naman nabaliw sina arianne, dan ojt, at iris ojt sa mga column strength interaction diagram. si bianca naman, nabigyan naman sana namin ng morale support sa retaining wall challenge niya.

light week. cool lang. may kulang lang din—dasal, exercise, oras sa sala. long weekend bukas pero tila magtatrabaho pa rin. kaya to. paano naman kaya pagkatapos ng weekend at bagong work week na? antabayanan.

gutom ako. kakain muna ako nung patatas thing na binili malapit sa city hall.

green lantern

not such a good day for me today. i hope i end it well. a bit more than an hour left.

late for work and still doubtful of how much good my cool-headedness is compared to how bad it could be. i’m looking forward to good outputs tomorrow and next week. we gotta get up above the basement levels and on to the podium.

i didn’t go to the centennial celebration. i guess being part of mass sentimentality is not for me. it doesn’t discount the fact, though, that i am glad of what’s being celebrated—100 years of education.

but seriously, i think it was meant that the green lantern started to be shown in cinemas today.

chicken run

shop drawings at medyo petiks sa office kanina. midweek, goodluck. tingin ko, maganda ang progress na magagawa ngayong linggo. hindi pa rin tinatamaan ng stress. ok ito. kanina, 6pm, naghanda na ako para sa kumain.

nagbabalik si tj sa chicken holocaust 3 na sponsored ni yaluts. ayos. naabutan din namin ang green lantern sa 5th floor ng waltermart at nakapag-treadmill papuntang basement parking. kumpleto.

jog trip

jogged/walked for 2 hours with 1 hour rest time throughout then mini food trip with sunny. veggie ramen and chilled taho.

i’m not absorbing as much stress at work. maybe things will go well. i’m more charged up to do well.

invasion or importation

parang ang bilis ng araw kanina.

nagising ako na may random characters sa aking twitter at facebook status dahil nahigaan ko ang cellphone ko nang nakabukas ang twitter app.

halos 9 na nakarating sa opisina. maraming kailangang gawin. maraming nagawa/napagawa pero marami pa ring utang. hanggang kailan ba ako negative? impressive ang dalawa naming ojt. kailangang ma-challenge pa lalo.

6:09pm, nag-out na ako. nabibilisan ako sa oras o sadyang mabagal lang ako.

manila manila

had a ride on memory lane today with trips to some parts of manila.

in the morning, my parents and i heard Mass at Espiritu Santo Parish and had brunch at the house of a friend of theirs. from there, we bought groceries at cash and carry. memories of recent years there.

in the afternoon, i went to bryan’s wedding with sheila, patrick, and wang. vicky was there, organizing. i remember the place, we did some projects there. reception, jeff, kenneth, and felix came too. i was rather silent. i wasn’t even able to ask vicky about the girl in a red dress with black linings. memories from 5 or 6 years ago.

yeah, i remembered most was how silent i used to be just like how i became for most of the day today.

cara got a temporary phone yesterday. she’s right, we gotta go hunting soon.

starbucks coffee and burger machine

masarap talagang matulog sa sofa.

pumasok ako sa opisina nang mga 1130 at kumain kami nina boss dan at sir gary sa little tokyo. pagkatapos, hanggang mga 2pm ata kami ni boss sa pc express para dun sa 3TB 6gbps hdd. pagbalik, halos nag-ayos lang ako ng mga gamit at nag-take home. wala kami masyadong tinrabaho ni tristan. sinumulan na rin namin ang case study kung alin nga ba talaga ang problema, kung yung pc mismo, yung outlet ng kuryente, o yung avr.

uwian, nagulat si dian sa akin kaya hindi umabot ng 8 hours na OT. nilibre ko siya ng libreng starbucks. nung maghiwalay na kami ng landas, dumaan na rin ako sa burger machine para bumili ng pangsabay sa kape ko.

sa bahay, nakatulog ako habang nagdadasal. tsk. akala ko pa naman nagpapagising ang kape.

bukas, piyesta sa Espiritu Santo. doon kami magsisimba sa umaga. sa hapon naman, kasal ni bryan. matapos ang matagal na panahon, makikita ko uli siya, si vicky, si patrick, at si sheila.