kaya naman

lumampas sa time limit. walang bag pero may medal at certificate. ayos lang, masarap pa rin tumakbo. at least hindi dnf. gg ako dun sa pangalawang 18k mark.

na-conclude ko na hindi sapat ang nasa lower limit ng ideal weight. hindi ideally fit ang katawan ko. may sapat na panahon pa naman ata bago ang susunod na pwedeng salihang takbo.

hindi ko rin nga pala nagawa yung milo everyday. yun. kaya nga. at hindi rin kasi ako nagsimba bago tumakbo. hehe. mamaya, 5pm, simba. 7pm, victory party. bukas, opisina.

medyo naipagmayabang ko na ang aking minor accomplishment sa mga taong inspirasyon ko sa pagtakbo. sa susunod, mas gagandahan ko pa ang takbo para sa kanila rin. sa ngayon, pahinga.

clear skies and good luck

not the best preparation day today. eitherway, i hope and pray for clear skies and a good race tomorrow. +

regeneration

malapit nang mag-hatinggabi. dapat magpahinga hanggang bukas bago ang takbo sa linggo. hyped ako. sana, magawa nang tama at mahusay. sa ilang sandali, huhugasan ko ang pinagkainan ko at iinom ng protein drink. magpapababa muna ako ng kinain bago matulog. mahalaga ang bukas para sa makalawa. kailangang galingan. +

LKJ

it was my turn to be KJ tonight. i wish i joined them but i really needed to sleep. i didn’t have enough energy to join arianne, daryl, cesar, bianca, dan, and iris. i didn’t even have enough drive to join the midnight runners for one last training session.

another lacking day at work. a little calmer with a rough start. and stress doesn’t seem to be only in our struct group since ailene’s been doing overtime the other day and today. ah, we gotta get back at enjoying the night after a day’s work. i promised them and myself that next week will be less stressful and even stressfree if possible.

binabagyo tayo

umuulan na naman. tumigil lang nang kaunti kagabi. tila binabagyo na ang buhay ko. pero ambon pa lang. pero ngayon, hindi na ako magpapatalo.

i won’t get in my way

i’m liking that song from mr. big’s new album. yep. that’s gonna be my driving force in the coming days.

late for work, not as much accomplished as expected, went home late despite early out announcement because of the rain. i will keep going though. go further!

ABC

kakaibang overtime. tila malaking bahagi ng overnight overtime ko ay pagbigay lang ng morale support. at pagdating ng umaga, umuwi at hindi nakapasok sa oras. may ilang napala sa maghapon pero kulang pa rin. sa gabi, pasimula sa bagong hamon sa propesyon.

masayang makipag-asaran kay arianne. pinakapanalo sa lahat, ABC� isang maganda sa mga ganitong pangyayari sa buhay, nakikilala ang iba at napapakilala ang sarili sa iba.

kanina, parang nasa videogame lang nung papasok ako. at limitado ang maaaring daanan at kailangang alamin at gawin nang tama. at parang sa action videogame, sana mag-level up na sa buhay ko. pati sa buhay ng mga mahal ko.

walk off

dry run this morning, woke up to another �dream sequence� but this time, it was venjo and apparently i was running late. funny, the dream i was having before waking up had me being called by my mother to go down to the construction site.

run was ok for the first part and the second half became a walk because of not so good gastro-intestinal activities. 3 and a half hours. how do you cut and hour from your time? gotta do that in a week.

not so good afternoon. lazy afternoon. i think i did a half marathon at home, well, of season two of community. the irony, i was doing so to get my mind off a certain name that managed to show up in this morning�s jog (while i was still jogging). fate, please don�t play me.

and speaking of fate, i sure hope my best friend�s fate goes well. i expressed how difficult it is when she�s sad and was actually thinking of bailing out. but then, what kind of best friend would i be if i did so? i guess she got me when she said i give her strength. that bit of acknowledgement makes everything worth it.

10pm. i gotta get to sleep early and start tomorrow well.

mahirap makatulog

malapit nang mag-cinderella time. hindi pa ako masyadong inaantok dahil sa sarap ng tulog ko sa sala kaninang hapon. oks lang sana pero kailangan kong gumising nang maaga bukas para sa tentative dry run.

hindi na naman ganoon kabuti ang pakiramdam ko kaninang umaga. buti na lang, pagdating ng gabi, wala na ang sakit ng ngipin. yung ibang sakit, ewan. bwahahaha.

lazy saturday, kako nga. walang nagawa para mabawasan ang trabaho at sakit ng ulo na magbabalik sa lunes. pero sige lang, wag mawalan ng pag-asa.

pagdating sa techie side, nalutas ko na rin sa wakas ang misteryosong unknown used space na meron pala dito sa netbook. system restore ang may sala. ayun, na-recover ko na rin pati doon sa laptop ni mama.

nae-excite din ako sa pagdating ng bagong amd fx processors na malamang ay sa setyembre lalabas ayon sa comic-themed youtube promo video. kaadikan. sana, pag nakumpleto ko na ang super desktop ko, makapag-focus naman ako sa ibang binabalak pagkakagastusan o pag-iipunan.

braces, the painful cost of a smile

had an ok half day at work this afternoon. took home the dccd anniversary lunch and it surprisingly tasted well. stayed a little later to wait for arianne and iris and went straight home since i had to take home my amp. it was cool that i got acknowledged today for lending it. haha.

i honestly can�t remember why i felt bad in or about my dream thus the �badtrip panaginip� line of the day. nevertheless, it�s a fun thing to go around.

news from my best, she won 2nd place in their fun run. can�t help but be proud of her. i wish i could let her and my troubles run away, though, but i guess the least and best to do is to dedicate prayers for those most special to us.

tonight, ate went home to cavite with buds. she�s recovering quickly. i cried later tonight with her simple note on my door. happy sad tears.

days, even teeth-adjusting days, we can get through them because of even bits of happiness and smiles.

i’m in pain

half day ako ngayon at papasok mamaya dahil nagpa-adjust na naman ako ng braces sa dentista. hindi pa rin makabitan ng retainers. may kabigatan din ang pakiramdam ko ngayon dahil sa pag-overtime kagabi. hindi ko alam gaano ang napala namin pero kahit papaano, may mas gusto akong direksyon sa ginagawa.

bukod sa sakit ng ngipin, meron din akong sakit sa damdamin. oo, tila hindi epektibo ang denial sa ibang aspeto. ayos lang din. masarap naman ang lunch kahapon sa tapa king. pagbalik sa opisina, hindi na nga lang ganun ka-ok ang araw. nahahati ang puso ko kahapon sa lungkot at saya. haha. tila ang emo ko humirit. pero kagabi, sinabi ko rin sa sarili ko, “there is no plan b. plan a na lang kaya?” tsk. wala na lang. go with the drive na lang. makikita rin ang nais puntahan.

some people watch tv

got pressured at work in the morning. afternoon at the site meeting went pretty well. i’m getting comfortable with our foreign counterparts, stopping to chit-chat when i was starting to jog with venjo, goey, kevin, and his cousin later that night. too bad i wasn’t able to answer david sze’s question, “why do you jog?”

i also got my “keep the faith” band from bianca today. advocacies, i think i have to write a song about the fight against cancer.

home sweet home, sweet spaghetti. i wish i didn’t have to wake my mother up just for her to heat the left over sauce. she could have just texted me instructions to heat the sauce after i got my share. but i think that was the best text i got during the night, my mother informing me of spaghetti sauce and asking if i prefer macaroni or spaghetti.

10 days to go, not yet ready. gotta shape up. go go go!

lipad, oras, lipad

sabi, “time flies when you’re having fun.” kanina, ang bagal ng oras sa opisina. at wala sa aming nag-OT. wala rin kasi si iris.

marahil, malungkot nga ako. hindi naman sobra. hindi dapat. pero ayos lang. ngayon ko lang naisip, at kailangan kong bilisan ang blog post na ito, kailangan kong makapagsulat ngayong gabi. “sad enough, happy enough.”

sana healthy enough din. tingin ko, maayos-ayos naman ang pagkain ko ngayong araw na ito. bukas din dapat. at hanggang sa mga susunod na araw. dapat mabuti ang pagkain para sa takbo sa katapusan ng buwan.

kailangang lumipad. kahit hindi siguro umabot sa kalawakan.

midnight runners

yeah. and it’s the 19th already. i was 25 and a half yesterday. i spent most of the day at the site coordination meeting and back there later in the evening for some training. midway through the year, i think the day was pretty mediocre in a technical point of view. in a non-technical, it turned out to be fun despite me expecting it not to be. i should start my days not expecting it to be bad. it would likely be much much better.

chord progression

lunes na naman bukas. ang bilis ng araw na ito. sa totoo lang, mabagal pala. nakapagrelax naman nang todo. pero bitin pa rin.

mga hindi ko nagawa: bawasan ang trabaho bukas at makapagsulat ng kanta.

mga nagawa ko: bagong rhythm para sa bagong kanta at matulungan ang tatay ko sa pagkakabit ng tarpauline ng fern c.

nakapagsimba rin ako kaninang umaga kasama ang aking nanay kahit na ang balak sana ay samahan ang ate ko.

pahinga. kilos!

sing sing

i received some news today. i’ll be waiting for february. learning old news that is in no way good tonight got me really mad. i guess i should simply be glad it’s over.

had a jam session with thad and dogi in the morning. yeah! i think the song structure, music-wise, is good to go. lyrics, to follow. gotta have them don by wednesday morning. well, gotta finish some work stuff before, though.

afternoon, badminton groupies. haha. team had a win (by default) and a loss (more like owning). good enough, and i think, at least they had fun.

later, tokyo tokyo. default meal—pork tonkatsu bento. fun how we stayed for more than an hour and that charlie managed to join us even after we’ve eaten. night out. haha. alas, i had a weekend trip. mini roadtrip (dropoff) after c/o bianca and maria.

lift your head

tila hindi talaga natatapos ang linggo sa opisina na maraming natatapos. ayos lang. sige lang. laban pa.

pero masarap mag-lunch out. nakaka-miss din ang pagkain sa labas tuwing lunch break. at medyo panalo rin na walang boss halos buong araw. hahaha.

masaya ngayong gabi dahil nagdasal kaming pamilya ng rosaryo sa simbahan ng san ildefonso habang nandun ang imahe ng Birhen ng Manaoag. sarap. kahit trafik at magulo ang lansangan dahil ika-15 at biyernes, ayos lang. kahit tila ngarag ang staff sa chowking at wala nang siomai at ilang iba pang pagkain, masarap pa rin.

may dahilan man para maging malungkot, dapat ngumiti. at sa paghahanap ng pahahalagahan, dapat hindi mawala ang dati nang mahalaga. wala lang. ilan lang sa mga dumadaan sa isip ko habang nakikipagtext ngayong gabi. pero ang pinakamatindi talaga ngayong araw na ito, hindi nga nagiging butterfly ang grasshopper.

not a walk in the park

i woke up this morning with a problem on the intake structure. talk about ghosts. well, sleep was pretty nice with a dream and the line “ang ganda ng lips mo,” and things that happened before that and the spaghetti after was really comic. of course, i just had to tell part of the story to my officemates.

ooh, it’s friday already. i’m not getting and i really can’t tell any happy stories for this week now. but hey, we still have friday.

my feet ache. 13 of supposedly 15 laps. 3 hours. cramps on the start of the 12th. gg. sat for 2 laps. finished the cooldown lap. i need to fix my diet starting in the morning. haha. i had tuna paella for dinner when i got home less than an hour ago.

wow. it’s friday already.

are we halfway there?

midweek, konti pa. konti na lang ba? basta, kakayanin. dapat.

weakening week?

bad start. not so much happened to make things better. and it’s already midweek tomorrow.

i decided i won’t go to he korn concert. sadly, deciding to not do things is easier than deciding to do things and succeeding in doing so. change… change… change…

bearing pressure

ano ba to? hindi na tama ito.

jazz blues

i think i’m gonna get used to hearing Mass in the morning again. it makes my sunday feel better. i still like the feeling of hearing Mass in the afternoon as a preparation for the coming week. eitherway, going to Mass rocks!

had a jam session with tinola today. nice. i’m liking the feel of the band’s sound. playing in another band, it gives me the drive to do well in my main band.

it’ll be monday in a few hours. gotta make the coming week awesome.

sakit ng ngipin ngayong sabado

overtime pero sandali lang. nakakahiya talaga sa mga ojt. nakakahiya ako. apparently, hindi ko mapakita sa boss ko at sa mga kasama ko kung gaano talaga ako kagaling. overrated pa rin. pero masarap din ang pakiramdam, minor accomplishment kanina—makapagpadala ng drawing list. ang babaw. grabe. ganito na ata ako ka-unaccomplised sa buhay.

malakas ang ulan kaninang hapon. sulit ang kapote. haha. nag-ikot ako nang konti sa mcs para ipaayos ang bag ni ate sa mr. quickie at bumili ng cmos battery para sa pc ni tristan sa office. dumaan akong plaza fair at tila inuubos na lang ang paninda. ewan kung kailan magsasara. o baka magrerenovate. ewan. sana hindi naman magsara yung mismong makati square. medyo monumento yun, e.

pag-uwi, tambay sa sala. oo nga no di ako nakapag-siyesta. sana maganda ang araw ko bukas. dapat. siguro wala na rin ang sakit ng ngipin ko bukas dahil sa adjustment ng braces. maraming hirap at sakit pero hindi dapat kalimutang tumanaw para sa kabutihang darating.

downpour

not the best day this week. not the best friday in recent days. missed the mark again.

it wasn’t so bad though, thanks to burger king whopper and finding out how to check the design strips right.

gotta make up for things. work tomorrow and next week’s gonna be much better. that would be for work, jogging, and rock & roll.

first string 7th fret on standard tuning 4-string bass

nakakuha ako ng beat ngayong gabi. sana tuloy lang sa mga susunod na araw.

kailangan ko na rin nga palang tanggaping sira na ang aking cdrking mouse dahil nabagsak ko nung isang araw. hindi lang pala yung cable retracting mechanism ang nabasag. sira rin pala yung mismong left button. oh well.

hindi siguro na-achieve ang perfect day ngayon pero good day pa rin sa trabaho. mas maganda sana pero mabuti na rin. nasabi kong ganoon nga dahil hindi nakakabagot na kahit binalak kong umuwi nang 6pm, 7pm na naman ako nakaalis ng office. bumili ako ng siomai at nag-claim ng starbucks coffee pag-uwi. credit card promo dinner sa amin. well, plus siomai.

beat, beat, beat, beat, beat, beat, rhythm. itutuloy ko yung rhythm salamat sa mga kanta galing kina bianca, arianne, at ailene. so far, sa kylie minogue song, get out of my way, na suggestion ni bianca pa lang ako nakuha ng beat at nakapag-record ng rhythm. ewan ko lang kung mate-trace ang influence. kung anuman, salamat din at may nasimulan na naman akong kanta kahit konting tugtog  pa lang. tungkol saan kaya ito magiging?

lumabas ako ng bahay kaninang umaga papuntang opisina at dineklarang hindi uulan. pagbaba ko ng jeep, nagsimulang umambon nang malakas. naglakad ako papuntang opisina, hindi kinuha ang kapote ko. dumating akong basang-basa. buti hindi ako nagkasakit. sana hindi nga magkasakit. pakiramdam ko, pagbabasbas ang pagbuhos ng ulan sa akin kanina. hanggang ngayon, nararamdaman ko pa rin. sana, may maialay ako bilang pagpapasalamat.

is this what�s called artistic restraint

i found it difficult to sleep. it wasn�t a good night..err..early morning. i thank God today wasn�t as bad as it could have been yet bad enough to have better days ahead.

morning, boss was early and the team had quite a meeting. later, i was back to what i usually do. by afternoon, i�ve gone tired. i planned to go home by 530 but i stayed untl 7. well, at least we�ve got the design results started.

i walked home. i think i was feeling anti-gravity. the incubus and korn concerts really got some talking going on. interesting. very interesting.

sleepy. i had pizza and wanted to skip dinner but adobo, i just can�t skip that. 7-7 tomorrow. interesting day. hope it becomes one of those perfect days.

increasing kPa

eto na ang pressure sa project. antagal ng cruch time. pinakamaganda atang nangyari ngayon sa project, nakita ang nawawalang cd na hindi naman pala nawawala. wala lang talaga sa amin ni maam che.

nalaman ko rin na interesting option ang korn concert sa august 10. pero ewan. mahal kasing presyo ng incubus concert sa july 28. siguro, regarding music, focus muna ako sa audition ko sa sunday na hindi ko pa napaghahandaan. ack.

kinakabog ako. crunch time. crunch time.

racket

i didn’t go jogging for something else. i think i’m in denial that i’m doing something. although i’m admiting it as “ninja” to my barkada. oh well. i don’t want to give it much thought.

there was a lot of panic and still unfinished stuff at work today. i’m losing control. snap. snap. i need to snap back into control. i think i can. yes. i can’t lose.

i won’t be sleeping on time tonight as per my ideal daily sched. hope i wake up on time and do some catching up at work. the bed is quite inviting, though, as it has newly replaced sheets and so are the pillow cases. i quite miss my bed since i was evicted from my room last night by a flying cockroach whose remains have yet to be seen. and if ever it survived the insecticed attack, then it shall die by me. hahaha.

green cross. i just noticed the bottle of green cross here on my desk. hope. i hope tomorrow will be a great day. green is also the brand color for milo. ack. another thing i don’t want to give much thought. haha. this is getting fun/complicated.

dala

11am ako nagsimba kanina kasama sina ate, adette at judith. hindi kagandahan ang gising ko, ewan ba. buti na lang, nagawa kong magsimba nun. sabi sa Gospel reading ngayon, “cast your burdens upon Me…” sabi ng pari, hindi naman daw sinabing go to the mall, spend money, drink, smoke, etc. ibigay daw sa Diyos ang mga pasanin sa buhay at bibigyan ka ng ginhawa. matigas talaga ulo ng tao, mahina, simple lang naman yun. bakit hindi ko nagagawa?

nagising ako bago mag-6 ng gabi, hindi ko mawari kung anong araw. tila bitin ang weekend. isa sa mga positive side every week, bawat linggo, pwedeng tingnan bilang bagong simula. kung tutuusin, pwedeng bawat araw, pero mas sakto ang pattern sa pagpalit ng linggo kumpara sa pagpalit ng araw o ng buwan. bagay pala na simulan na bukas ang ginawa ko kahapong ideal daily schedule. tama.

wake up

woke up on time but wasn’t able to go jogging. so much for that. i did a rough estimate of an ideal daily schedule instead after i did some cardio. later, it was fail time as the morning wasn’t so well. attending the opening for the tournament was quite boring. what would i have done without my cellphone and had people not replied.

i had lunch at kfc in quiapo instead of having a free lunch at the astrodome since i was quite uncomfortable there. after lunch, i said a short prayer in the church and i guess things turned out better since then. for one, the sun shined. it started to pour when i was on the lrt.

got myself a music stand and a mic holder for the mic stand. i went home and had yakisoba and popcorn with ate while we were “starbucks mode” in the sala with our laptops.

i fell asleep and woke up to a phone call from kevin. it was like a dream sequence. he made me go to max’s. i obliged. not long after, i arrived at max’s with domeng already there, then goey arrived next, then kevin, then dogi+ced(?).

pre-after party was spent here as kevin needed to copy my ms office installer and waited for dogi. after party should now be on at goey’s place with the ps3 although domeng’s already home since he has a run tomorrow.

day turned out to be ok, but i’m quite full and need to get rid of unpleasant fat.

sweet spot

di ko alam status namin sa shangri-la project. pero kaya yan. hahabol. swerte ko talaga sa teammates. pakiramdam ko talaga, ako patalo. pero di yan. kailangang hindi mawala ang positive outlook.

friday at wala akong lakad. late kasi ako nakapasok, at ewan, nakakainis, tinamad akong magsimba. tsk tsk tsk. naghanap na lang ako ng shorts na may zipper ang bulsa (pero walang nahanap), at bumili ng windows 7 home premium fpp para sa x3-pc. kung meron lang sanang victory celebration inuman party thing sina bianca para sa pagkaka-gold thesis nila, sasama sana ako. adik lang sa lakad. pero malamang hindi rin pala ako makakapunta dahil may mga balak para bukas ng umaga. buti na lang din at walang celebration inuman party thing kanina pero sabi naman, sasabihan ako pag meron.

di ko alam kung tuloy ang jogging namin bukas nang madaling araw, pero panalo yung binigay ni ailene kanina kapalit ng mrt card na binigay ko sa kanya noon isang araw. snickers. hindi ako fan ng snickers dahil sa tamis, pero yung bite sized, panalo, sweet spot, sakto. tamang-tama. stock para sa traning kahit kinain ko na yung isa kanina.

kailangang magpahinga at matulog nang maaga. kailangan ng energized weekend.