1/11/11

i have to finish somethings to start other things. yeah, it may be the eleventh day of the eleventh year of the millenium. (tama ba, 2001 yung first year?) well, eleven is written as two ones. well, maybe it means i should start a lot of things. hmm.. i wonder how it would be 10 months from now.

you can�t win `em all

tatlong race sa nfs world ngayong gabi, sa pangatlo natalo. kung tutuusin, hindi kagandahan yung pangalawang panalo although on the defense naman ako noong may nangyaring collision. tapos too good to be true pala talaga yung early lead sa first lap nung pangatlo.

lazy monday sa trabaho. may bagyong darating kung hindi ko mapipigilan. ako rin naman ang nag-contribute sa paggawa ng calm before the storm.

nabanggit ko ngayong gabi na tila tumigil ang mundo ko. hindi ko pa rin napapagalaw. tinatamad ata ako. tinatamad nga.

quote of the day: ako a2 22 na? Kasi kahapon 23 e.. Hahaha! :p

kung tutuusin, ako, hindi ako naging conscious sa kung ilang taon ako. pero kapag nakakahagilap ng matagal nang kaibigan, masarap bumalik. masarap sigurong bumata uli kung kasama nun ay ang pagbalik ng mga masayang nagdaan.

araw-araw, hinihintay ko ang sarili kong tumulak pa. hindi na pwedeng bumalik. hindi rin sapat na nakatigil lang. ewan. pero sabi nga, kaya yan!

un-

some things like happy moments, you just can�t forget. some things like stress, you just don�t want to think of. and on that note, i don�t want to think of it. hahaha.

i guess it�s unfair or simply sad that happy times aren�t remembered or celebrated because those times belong to the past already and are no longer the foundations of the future. but maybe it�s also just as sad to remember or be reminded. so today, i uncelebrate. let this be the first and last unniversary.

today, i just remembered, was lolo daddy�s birthday. it�s also the feast of the Black Nazarene. �Quiapo day.� some memories there, too. some not mine actually. something about memories. they are meant to be kept but not to hold us back. it crosssed my mind, and i am considerring it. a devotion could work for me. also, to carry on something done by devotees,�important men�who have passed away.

and speaking of memories, i can�t remember when i got that hg 1/100 wing zero custom special operation type. and the mg 1/100 wing gundam ver. ka. last friday, i bought the mg 1/100 deathscythe ew ver. they�re stacked now, unbuilt. as i told cara, i should have these, at least the 2 mg�s done by march. i think i already have a place for them and upcoming 3�where my desk fan is now. i think my wallet just got hurt.

my desk fan stopped working already. it needs a �jumpstart� for the fan to spin (slower than it�s been) and quits swiveling. it could have been because i tilted it downward and put it on steady last night(?). i have mama�s stand fan now. i think i�ll manage with a stand fan. i remember having a deskfan ever since.

last day of the Christmas season. tsk. not the best day for me. it�s actually on the lower end of good. what�s left to do? i know the answer, i just lack the action. but hey, at least knowing is a start right? move on to better tomorrows.

i�d rather not sleep

kaninang tanghali, nakatulog ako at pagkagising ko, pagod ako. hindi ko maalala yung panaginip ko pero nakakapagod at tila medyo mabigat sa kalooban. nung hapon, natulog uli ako at pagkagising, naalala ko naman nang konti yung napanaginipan ko. nakakapagod at may lungkot din.

naisip ko, sabado nga pala ako pinanganak. sabi ko nga noon kina cara at sunny, ang birthday ko ay january saturday. ngayon, hindi ko ma-enjoy ang sabado. kulang na ako sa willpower para gawin ang mga dapat. tapos todo stress pa galing sa trabaho.

isang pangarap, sana ma-enjoy ko uli ang mga sabado. hindi lang isang sabadong masaya kundi mga sabadong masaya. next week kaya, pwede nang magsimula?

high rise

well, not yet there. i have to admit i�m excited about a high rise building project even though it�s just a peer review. actually, i think i could say it�s as good as designing.

as far as other stuff in my life and the trend of things getting better, it�s still getting there.