on leisure
though a greater part of me disagrees with the term (pinili ko lang kasi sa L nagsisimula), today was the second ang last day for my relstri community service. came late, rested a lot, did moderate work under moderate sun (moderate is a subjective term), finished late. had some fun with classmates i don't spend much time with but felt damn far from the her while she was just on the next housing project.
why leisure, by the way? one word: fun.
[did you know that new door can be changed into one word?]
love
for family and friends and that special love people talk about. it makes me think of sadness, joy, and the absence of both in me.
(...and it's opposite...)
i did some backstabing and i sure wish my companions will remind me of my cawardly courage in words by monday that i may not be one of them i backstab. one category that i sure won't be at the same level with them is wisdom, or stupidity if you put it in their terms -- that being my basis for backstabbing.
life (and the end of it)
made my mind busy for on my way home from severina (just the entrance). there's this sense of loneliness related to the last bold L word. in brief, it's a loneliness among people around who don't actually want to be where they are.
another point pondered on is...are the dreams i have for others. interesting, it seems, is the posibility of being known as one who lived with unfinished dreams. then again, i'd have to die first so let's leave that with a low probability. besides, i wouldn't want others fulfilling my dreams for me.
i need to talk to someone as wise about my grammar and these things that run through my mind. the latter, maybe at least to a good listener. gotta get these out of my mind. i've got priorities piled up, and they're all related to academics.
(arun, antagal ko nang hindi nagsusulat! saklolo. i'm a lost kid and you're a cop from grammar police.)
o, and if you're wondering what about the fourth L word, she's plays a big part in all the others.
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