ako si number 7

sayang, hindi ko nasabi noong MOS na ako si 6.9. rounded-off, 7.

bago matapos ang hulyo, 6.9something months na ang nagdaan sa taon. ano ba nangyari sa nagdaang dalawang buwan? kailan ba huli kong update?

ang naaalala ko, hindi ko napunan noong nagdaang hunyo ang panata kong pangungumpisal nang isang beses kada buwan. pero hindi ibig sabihin na hindi ko kinailangan. hindi ko lang talaga nagawa. bukas, huling araw ng buwan, dapat magawa ko. sana makatulog nang maaga para magising. greenbelt chapel. tamang-tama, pwede kong isimba ang isa sa dalawang pares ng mga bago sapatos.

tinutuloy ko na ba ang overhaul sa buhay ko? ilang linggo ko na ring hindi nagagamit yung neo netbook ko dahil nabalik na at ginagamit ko na ang ion2 netbook na ininstallan ko ng windows 8.1 preview. nabuo at nagamit ko na rin (hanggang masira ang avr na kailangang ipa-warranty sa lalong madaling panahon) ang sli “rebuild” pc.

medyo mas naka-organanize na ang mga kalat kong box ng sapatos at pc parts dito sa kwarto ko. parang ang sikip talaga pero lumuwag na rin dahil sa paglagay ko ng sli-pc sa drafting table. redesignated na siya, at para hindi na rin malagyan ng kalat na hindi maayos. sa kasalukuyan nga lang ay andun ang mga damit kong pambahay at panlaro. sa mga darating na araw, kailangang linisin at gawan ng sistema ang aparador ko.

napunta ako sa Leyte at Cebu para sa trabaho. napunta ako sa Aklan at Capiz kasama nina raymond para magbakasyon. oo nga pala, isa sa mga highlight ng June ang pagpunta dito nina raymond at ninong raul. masayang bitin. medyo nakakaiyak din dahil sa pangungulila.

ang sarap magbalik-tanaw minsan. sana mas madalas kong nagagawa para paglipas ng ilang taon, makaka-random flashback ka. (nanghihinayang pa rin ako nang konti sa pagkawala ng backup ko ng blogs ko sa multiply.) kaso nawala na sa akin ang habit ng pag-blog, lalo pa’t pang-sariling pagbabalik-tanaw na lamang ito at hindi pa parang noong nagsimula ako. may facebook at twitter naman na para sa pagpapapansin.

di na rin naman ako kailangang magpapansin. may paborito naman akong papansin sa akin bukod sa mga magulang ko—ang minamahal ko. ayun, hindi pa ata ako nakaliban sa pag-email bukod sa noong wala talagang internet access noon andun ako sa kanila.

ang sarap isipin na nagkasundo kaming hindi dapat aabot ng 48 hours na hindi kami magkikita sa skype, pero madalas, hindi nga umaabot ng 24 hours.

ang galing, yung daloy ng pag-iisip ko sa freewriting kong ito, present, past, tapos future. future. kinabukasan. ang gulo pa rin ng kwarto ko. may mga kaguluhan pa rin sa aking sarili. buti hindi nawawala sa akin ang pagiging positibo. parang ganun nga ata ang natuklasan ko sa sarili ko noon, bilang si number 7. pag-asa. mukhang mas masaya ako bukas. dapat lang.

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69 2013

it’s not really the middle of the year, it’s actually quite a month from it, but today’s significant in how it is the day of hope. or something like that. i just made that up now, attributing it to the sign of hope. but i’m not so hopeful. maybe i’m exhausted. or maybe i got even lazier. eitherway, i should get back to being that hopeful self that i am. well, i think i can. then i will.

4 weeks go by quickly

at ganun na lang, ilang oras, patapos na ang buwan ng mayo. di ko pa nga natapos yung lookback ko sa abril, maghu-hunyo na. at marami-rami rin akong hindi natapos. bawi bukas? lagi naman. pero sana talaga. ay, hindi. dapat pala.

vacation mode april (intermission)

oh, it’s May 1st already. part 3 and 4 didn’t make it before the month changed. well, quite like how rebuild of eva 3 and final got a long time in between 2 and 3. anyways, i realised i’ve been typing for 2 hours.  i’ll continue later my look back in the month of april. or maybe on the weekend. wouldn’t want to miss so much in blogging about a fun summer.

vacation mode april (part 3)

i can’t seem to remember what happened in between until that friday. april 19, toe, live in manila. venue was changed from b-side to mega tent at pasig. we discovered that on that day itself.

i survived the mrt queue at the magallanes station and ride (thanks to tristan’s stored value card) to ortigas station and met up with yaluts, dogi and ced. the walk to metrowalk was not quick but not bad since there were breezes on the way. we didn’t take that long to get inside the place and picked our spot—near the center of the crowd, left of the drummer. the band was in the middle of the crowd in a circular stage. before it got crowded, i managed to spot bugie, yot, martin, and karen f. later i saw pau join them and before we left, ray.

rewind back to the concert, i took pictures. well, redundant pics really. i didn’t take videos. i just audio recorded the whole concert including the “back”acts. (the front acts were on a stage behind the band.) i wished we had position ourselves a little to the left so that the orange guitar amp didn’t cover the bassist. not so bad, though. still had a good view of the drummer’s dynamics. the band was great. inspiring and a bit exhausting. in a good way. the energy was over the top.

we had dinner after and i realized how long it was since i had a seat. we took a taxi home and i packed my stuff for that weekend’s company outing. and yes, went online in skype.

got up with enough time to get to the office before being left by the bus. i got my toothbrush and water bottle from my workarea and went back to board the bus. we left at around 8am and there were 2 rounds of emperador light c/o m.e. boys. bianca and ej were already in quezon by then. not an hour after, we picked up the rest of the struct guys at cainta junction then we were off to real, quezon. i think i’ve switched my xperia back to its regular battery by then. i loaded the spare battery that morning and it lasted only 4 hours. oh well. i think i spent most of the charge online at home.

almost midday, we arrived at the villa jamaica resort, settled down, and had lunch. the place was ok. not bad, but there were complaints. i held back on giving countercomments. i was one who didn’t wear sunblock afterall.

left my phones because of the absence of a cellular signal and the risk of dropping them in the river or getting lost in the beach. first stop, a small water falls. feeling experienced and stuff, i kinda assisted the ladies in the trail to and fro. alas, i injured myself with a fleshwound early on. the falls was pretty. the clear water was cool.

back in the resort, i tried to rest but later joined in the reaketo drinking game with linette, francis, cesar, bem, tristan, jj, mike, bianca and ej. i think we’ve finished the bottle by the time the whole group was to go to the beach.

the beach was fun with the waves. the seaweeds were a bit of a nuance but nothing serious. i also found i fun how others were scared of the seaweed. frisbee wasn’t that fun with the strong wind so i think it was ej who suggested panintero. and we all realized later that it was very tiring. still, fun.

back in the resort, i’m glad the structural guys decided to mingle with the others. it was still a little akward so i think it was a good idea that i asked for our second bottle of empi light. inuman around the pool. heat and cold. and then dinner. and then another raketo. and then it’s over…videoke time.

won’t blog much about those but i recorded 5 and a half hours in my phone’s audio recorder. we ended at 2am, sir roger and tristan being the last men drinking. well, that’s aside from me.

sunday morning, we were off to balagbag falls were we had breakfast on leaves. my body wasn’t in tip top condition most likely due to the previous drinking session. i had my breakfast slowly being left by the group as they went up. i went up in a struggle with logical fear that my drunken state cannot make it. gladly, thank God, i made it. cool. beautiful. now i wish i had jumped but i think it was right that i chose not to. i was not in my least athletic condition. some other time.

struct guys and girls and i took the upper seats on the jeepney ride this time, back to the resort. i took a nap and did my bathroom needs in the outside bathroom. we were off to makati after lunch. and there, semp outing / linette’s farewell party.

pasalubong stop somewhere in laguna where i bought some broas for my mama and papa, uraro for SMC, and espasol for me. the struct guys were dropped off again in cainta. bus arrived at dccd with the sun still up. i think it was around 4pm. i walked home since i was too lazy to wait for a jeepney and didn’t want to walk up the pedestrian overpass. i had a coconut afterall.

i got a straw and drank the coconut juice here at home while online. mama and papa got home later and the rest of the day was another relaxing sunday at home after another fun weekend out of town.

after the Mass, SMC hanged out for a while at allen’s where kuya yet discussed the groupings and some info on the following weekends’ sportsfest.